Today is the day.

[DyingAlf]

What is worse? Guilt trips or passive encouragement?

Guilt trips

 

[mutato]

I guess that's subjective.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

You don't have to be sorry.
So many of us can relate to having SI issues.
If you do try again maybe you could put the sambucca into a different bottle.
In the meantime, try not to be too hard on yourself & take care of yourself.

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F*** O** with your prolife BS!

I was considering doing that on Thursday.

New guy here so I don't know your story.

Can't you at least wait until later in life when your parents are gone?
Assuming they are somewhat normal and loving as most parents are
then they don't deserve that. I'm aware that is asking for a lot especially
if you're really hurting.

What you are doing is a form of guilt tripping, but I understand your point.
It will be tough on them but I can't wait any longer, it is something I have to do.

 

[esse_est_percipi]

New guy here so I don't know your story.

Can't you at least wait until later in life when your parents are gone?
Assuming they are somewhat normal and loving as most parents are
then they don't deserve that. I'm aware that is asking for a lot especially
if you're really hurting.

where is it written that people should be obligated to stay alive if they still have family members?
Do you not think that the most basic freedom of all is the choice as to whether to live or die, and if we are denied that choice by state laws, psychological manipulation etc, then we are nothing more than slaves trapped in a tyrannical system?

 

[Painless_end]

I have seen a lot of your posts here and I know that you are extremely distressed.

I just want to say I feel sorry that you have to go through such pain.

I can relate on some level because a lot of my life is pain as well.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I have seen a lot of your posts here and I know that you are extremely distressed.

I just want to say I feel sorry that you have to go through such pain.

I can relate on some level because a lot of my life is pain as well.

It has been like this for as long as I remember. My first suicide attempt was age 12 which to is hilarious in a kinda morbid way.
I was on the subreddit.
It saddens me that I have failed so many times.

 

[Acopia]

Welcome back with open arms!

 

[mutato]

I'm sorry that I made you feel guilty. That was not my intention.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I'm sorry that I made you feel guilty. That was not my intention.

Don't worry, it's completely fine. :)

Welcome back with open arms!

Thank you.
I feel very embarrassed and stupid but hopefully I will succeed on Thursday

 

[TheQ22]

Right, open that sambuca, lets all have a glug, then we can all dothe macarana.

 

[mutato]

It's just soo difficult to imagine seeing the world through another persons eyes.
So I admit to probably being somewhat clueless as to how you're feeling.

 

[Acopia]

Don't worry, it's completely fine. :)

Thank you.
I feel very embarrassed and stupid but hopefully I will succeed on Thursday

I wouldn't be embarrassed - you're brave for even following through your plans up until the last moment, it takes a strong soul to journey to a cliff with intentions such as yours.
Jumping was my ideal method because I'd get to feel what it's like to fly, but the terror that came from standing at the top overtakes all of that; now it is my least preferred way to go! Although I still like the thought of it.
Get that Sambuca down you and have a chilled night!
It's not failure, just a different sort of progress. Life is twisted like that.

Be kind to yourself for today,
-A.

 

[lostangel]

I hope you can rest and be at peace.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I wouldn't be embarrassed - you're brave for even following through your plans up until the last moment, it takes a strong soul to journey to a cliff with intentions such as yours.
Jumping was my ideal method because I'd get to feel what it's like to fly, but the terror that came from standing at the top overtakes all of that; now it is my least preferred way to go! Although I still like the thought of it.
Get that Sambuca down you and have a chilled night!
It's not failure, just a different sort of progress. Life is twisted like that.

Be kind to yourself for today,
-A.

Thank you for your kind words.
I honestly thought I would be able to do it but looking down, I just couldn't.

 

[Acopia]

Thank you for your kind words.
I honestly thought I would be able to do it but looking down, I just couldn't.

I was exactly the same. I know that feeling, it's totally normal and it stops the best of us.
But maybe you stopped subconsciously for a reason? I think that gets mistaken for SI sometimes. Take some time to re-think, and look after yourself; even if you affirm that this is the right plan.
-A.xx

I was exactly the same. I know that feeling, it's totally normal and it stops the best of us.
But maybe you stopped subconsciously for a reason? I think that gets mistaken for SI sometimes. Take some time to re-think, and look after yourself; even if you affirm that this is the right plan.
-A.xx

* I nearly signed myself off as 'ass' there

 

[Meditation guide]

What is worse? Guilt trips or passive encouragement?

Since you are new you might not understand what is going on here on this forum. This is a special one of a kind place where people can talk about leaving this world openly with others of the same frame of mind, without the usual comments which tell them not to for various reasons. So we cherish this place for that reason, to talk openly and freely without
discouragement nor encouragement about it.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I was exactly the same. I know that feeling, it's totally normal and it stops the best of us.
But maybe you stopped subconsciously for a reason? I think that gets mistaken for SI sometimes. Take some time to re-think, and look after yourself; even if you affirm that this is the right plan.
-A.xx


* I nearly signed myself off as 'ass' there

Thank you, I know it is the right thing to do.
I'm pretty sure it was SI

 

[Meditation guide]

Thank you, I know it is the right thing to do.

It's very sad for me but I respect your decision. None of us can feel what pain you have suffered through that brought you here. I'm hoping it goes well for you and know that the decision is yours alone. In fact I wish on some days I could join you there on those cliffs.

 

[Ghost2211]

New guy here so I don't know your story.

Can't you at least wait until later in life when your parents are gone?
Assuming they are somewhat normal and loving as most parents are
then they don't deserve that. I'm aware that is asking for a lot especially
if you're really hurting.

If you didn't bother to take the time to read her old posts and learn her story it's no wonder you're the type of person to make such ignorant suggestions.

 

[Acopia]

Thank you, I know it is the right thing to do.
I'm pretty sure it was SI

Probably, SI is much much stronger!
Still, take it easy until your new day comes!
-A.Xxx

 

[Ghost2211]

At least you got a chance to see it OP, and can take the time to make peace with the thought of the it all. I imagine it's a world of difference to see pictures and imagine than it is to really see it. I bet it was beautiful though.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

At least you got a chance to see it OP, and can take the time to make peace with the thought of the it all. I imagine it's a world of difference to see pictures and imagine than it is to really see it. I bet it was beautiful though.

It was a really good sight.
It was chucking it down with rain and blowing a gale though.

 

[Ghost2211]

It was a really good sight.
It was chucking it down with rain and blowing a gale though.

Maybe less people there on a bad weather day, but perhaps more suspicious as well.

 

[TheQ22]

I'll come with you next time. And after I've pushed you off, erm I mean watched you jump off I'll think about jumping off, erm I mean will jump off.

Oh God what's wrong with me?

I think I'm Freudian slipping off the edge again.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

I'm really sorry.
I couldn't do it.
I didn't drink anything as I thought it would look too suspicious and therefore couldn't overcome my SI.
Trying again on Thursday.

don't be sorry. it's hard to make such a big decision. don't force yourself to do it. we're here for you.

 

[Meditation guide]

I'm really sorry.
I couldn't do it.
I didn't drink anything as I thought it would look too suspicious and therefore couldn't overcome my SI.
Trying again on Thursday.

I wish I could sit with you, be there for you. Sometimes I think if there were a few supportive people who could join together in a loving friendly way it would smooth things out somehow. Sit in a circle, sip some wine or something, just to be there for the one who is departing.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

I'll come with you next time. And after I've pushed you off, erm I mean watched you jump off I'll think about jumping off, erm I mean will jump off.

Oh God what's wrong with me?

I think I'm Freudian slipping off the edge again.

That did make me laugh

don't be sorry. it's hard to make such a big decision. don't force yourself to do it. we're here for you.

Thank you, it is much appreciated

 

[mooncake]

I'm really sorry.
I couldn't do it.
I didn't drink anything as I thought it would look too suspicious and therefore couldn't overcome my SI.
Trying again on Thursday.

You don't have to apologize or justify anything.
I hope you got home okay.

Don't worry, it's completely fine. :)

Thank you.
I feel very embarrassed and stupid but hopefully I will succeed on Thursday

You shouldn't feel embarrassed, and I'm sure no one here thinks you're stupid. This should be a safe space free of judgement.

 

[elfgyoza]

What is worse? Guilt trips or passive encouragement?

Why does it have to be one or the other? Please don't guilt trip, all it does is cause more pain. We already want to die, we don't need to hate ourselves even more because of the guilt

 

[KleinerWolf]

New guy here so I don't know your story.

Can't you at least wait until later in life when your parents are gone?
Assuming they are somewhat normal and loving as most parents are
then they don't deserve that. I'm aware that is asking for a lot especially
if you're really hurting.

Living for others is great,
however you have to be in that specific mindset to care,
Situations change lol
I can't fault you though.