Today is the day - Goodbye thread

[maniac116]

Nausea is bad

 

[peacetoall]

Please go peacefully....I am praying for you

 

[landslide2]

have you taken the SN? how are you feeling?

 

[Jessectb]

Nausea is annoying but youve probs been through much worse at some point in life. You'll get there. I wish you luck! And hope you'll find some peace. I'm not too far off ctb myself (Inert gas). Perhaps a few more days. Maybe tonight. I don't know yet. Got everything ready by my bed, just gotta find the right time. Last night I was too drunk and if attempted it, knew I'd fail so didn't bother. But tomorrow and the day after are all new days for me. We are all after that endless peace at the end of the day

 

[Bear1234]

Its been 25mins, I think OP might be out . Much love <3 I hope the last few moments were peaceful

 

[landslide2]

i hope this final journey was a painless one and you have found peace

 

[rozeske]

I hope you have found your ethernal peace. Rest easy kind soul

 

[Nephy]

rest in peace

 

[butterflyman]

Just checking in. How are you going?

 

[Forever Sleep]

I hope you found peace.

 

[banger12]

I hope you find in rest the peace that life was too cruel to afford you.

 

[Jon Arbuckle]

if you died I hope you went out peacefully. I saw your threads and replies from time to time and I'll miss that.

 

[CatLvr]

I will miss you. Rest quietly now.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

I hope everything went well, another kind soul mistreated by this world. I hope you're chilling somewhere laughing about how silly life was like you wanted

 

[silentballet]

I hope you're no longer in pain, my friend

 

[enduringwinter]

I'm sad. Whatever the result I wish OP no more pain.

 

[CantDoIt]

I hope you're at peace and with serenity now.

 

[Plentiful_Despair]

Rest in Peace.

I'm sad. Whatever the result I wish OP no more pain.

Don't be sad, be happy. OP's most likely free now

 

[BobSmoked]

I've not long joined but OP was very kind to me I hope they've found peace no words to describe them would do justice rest easy my friend.

 

[Lost Magic]

 

[WillowedFlower]

Hi, I'm so sorry and I feel really similar... can i please ask you how you finally gathered the courage to do it? i want to leave too but am too scared..

Thank you to everyone on this site who I had the pleasure of having discussions with and received advice from. Such a compassionate and empathetic group of people, I felt less alone getting to talk about things that you really can't anywhere else. I sincerely hope this site persists despite the pushback from the powers that be, as censorship is an insidious virus and should be fought for those who value freedom of thought and expression of ideas. Thank you to the developers and mods and others who help make this site possible.

My reasons: childhood trauma, the subsequent CPTSD and generally feeling as if I was not made for this world. Having experienced much of what I wanted to and having enough life experience and awareness of what potentially lies ahead to know that I am ready for it to end. I'm too sensitive, and cannot successfully function in the world as it is as a result. The world is full of pain and suffering and inequality, and I don't want any part of it. I believe that this is the path to true freedom from this prison for me.

I've revised my plan a bit as I had breakfast later than I planned. I started fasting at noon and plan to take SN at midnight so it should be a 12 hour fast (I don't tend to eat much so it shouldn't be a problem for me). I am also changing how I am taking the Xanax.


My method:

11am - breakfast

Noon - start fasting (12hrs)

10pm - stop water intake

11pm - 1000mg Tylenol + 2mg Xanax

11:20pm - 30mg meto

11:30pm - 2 pepcid

(In the mean time)

Prep SN drinks - 25g in ~ 100ml of water per drink

11:55pm - 8mg xanax + 400mg propranolol crushed and mixed in water

12am - drink SN


I will try to keep updated as the day progresses. After tonight, if you do not hear from me within a week, please cross out my name. I'm still open to comments/critiques about my regimen, if anyone has any suggestions

One note - I have IBS and some other digestive issues. People have said that SN is not an ideal method in these cases, but I am still going for it because it is my preferred method and the best option I have.

 

[fatladysings]

 

[nir]

OP seemed so sweet. It feels so strange that they're likely gone now. I hope it was peaceful. I'm glad they found comfort in this website until the end. They truly weren't alone.

 

[heavyeyes]

Rest in peace

 

[sweetcreep]

i hope you got what you wanted and that all is quiet now

 

[outrider567]

Been over 24 hours, perhaps you succeeded, if so, Rest In Peace

 

[awaitinglove]

safe travels :)