TODAY I'm going to use SN

[Snow Queen]

Eat *, sorry

i hope that you understood me correctly, i said that if you're feeling very sick, there's no need on taking SN, maybe you should wait untill you feel better by gaining back you're body strength !

 

[Freakazette]

i hope that you understood me correctly, i said that if you're feeling very sick, there's no need on taking SN, maybe you should wait untill you feel better by gaining back you're body strength !

That's not possible, that's why I want to take SN

 

[Lady black]

Hope you are not too sad that you postponed it, but I think it was better to postpone it

 

[Freakazette]

Well, it seems like no other time is better... Why do you need to have so much "guts" to do this?

I mean, if you're gonna feel sicker than you already are, with SN, chocking, death rattle... I'm too aware of the sickness.

I'm very disappointed in myself and still desperate to die, there's absolute no point in postponing. I'm already in pain and not alive. Even fasted 2 days long, not even feeling hungry anymore...

Why do I fear feeling more sick than already am? Vomiting, chocking...

I'm sorry,

 

[LansJ70]

Vomiting - everyone has vomited, it's nothing. "Chocking" There is no "chocking" you aren't "chocking" you're going into agonal breathing, which generally means you are deeply unconscious, so you don't even know. Death rattle - well that's (if it happens and isn't actually agonal breathing) when you are deeply unconscious and are at deaths door, so you don't realise it's happening.

So all you have to worry about is vomiting. But let me guess.....

Vomiting is so terrible and horrible it's worse than "chocking", agonal breathing, or the death rattle or death. Even though life is so painful it's unbearable?

Throw your SN down the toilet and go and live your life.

 

[Freakazette]

Vomiting - everyone has vomited, it's nothing. "Chocking" There is no "chocking" you aren't "chocking" you're going into agonal breathing, which generally means you are deeply unconscious, so you don't even know. Death rattle - well that's (if it happens and isn't actually agonal breathing) when you are deeply unconscious and are at deaths door, so you don't realise it's happening.

So all you have to worry about is vomiting. But let me guess.....

Vomiting is so terrible and horrible it's worse than "chocking", agonal breathing, or the death rattle or death. Even though life is so painful it's unbearable?

Throw your SN down the toilet and go and live your life.

Okay, so... just vomiting... It seems I need a lil' bit more time, but I want this - there's no backing out and thank you

 

[Lady black]

You should give yourself as much time as you need, there is no need to hurry, eternity is forever

 

[orlandom]

Okay, so... just vomiting... It seems I need a lil' bit more time, but I want this - there's no backing out and thank you

How are you now ?

 

[Freakazette]

How are you now ?

Not well, as always ( health issues ) and I couldn't even CTB... Oh, and thinking that tomorrow I have the meeting with the cop, and dunno if it's alright to inform him I'm not well in order to go to the meeting.

 

[Freakazette]

I'm so sorry, all you guys , it seems like I need at least one more day... Dunno why, I'm awfully disappointed in myself that it isn't that easy, even though I want this!

 

[Lady black]

You should not be sorry it's your life and also your death, it should be perfect for you

 

[Freakazette]

You should not be sorry it's your life and also your death, it should be perfect for you

I wished something to even be remotely *perfect*, nothing is, especially death

 

[Lady black]

But you should not do it before you are totally ready

 

[NothingElseMatters]

no, nothing is going to happen when you take sn, except death.

 

[Freakazette]

But you should not do it before you are totally ready

I will try to see when I am at least a lil' bit more ready, huggies

no, nothing is going to happen when you take sn, except death.

That's all that I want.

 

[Lady black]

You can contact me if you need someone to talk

 

[whitefeather]

I wished something to even be remotely *perfect*, nothing is, especially death

The result is the perfect part - Death .
"I'm not afraid of Death, I just don't want to be there while its happening" Woody Allen

 

[Freakazette]

You can contact me if you need someone to talk

Thankies!

The result is the perfect part - Death .
"I'm not afraid of Death, I just don't want to be there while its happening" Woody Allen

Thank you, guys, for all the encouraging!

*tons of hugs*