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angel_cries

angel_cries

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Bought shibari ropes as recommended for hanging and I'll be spending my evenings training hyperventilation for SWB. In 2 days I'll be wiping all my electronic devices and In 3 days maybe 4 I'll be running away without no one knowing. Tokyo is big, I know nobody will miss me but if they do it will be hard to find me. I don't know yet if I'll leave "notes" but probably I'll be venting about everything and everyone on my socials when im ready to go. Maybe I'll do a goodbye thread but if gets in the way I might just go without one. I am so hurt and tired of this.
 
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FindingHome

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Bought shibari ropes as recommended for hanging and I'll be spending my evenings training hyperventilation for SWB. In 2 days I'll be wiping all my electronic devices and In 3 days maybe 4 I'll be running away without no one knowing. Tokyo is big, I know nobody will miss me but if they do it will be hard to find me. I don't know yet if I'll leave "notes" but probably I'll be venting about everything and everyone on my socials when im ready to go. Maybe I'll do a goodbye thread but if gets in the way I might just go without one. I am so hurt and tired of this.
Where did you buy the ropes?
 
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FindingHome

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Amazon. A set of two 10m long 8mm cotton made rope really cheap. 1000 yen.
Thanks!
Bought shibari ropes as recommended for hanging and I'll be spending my evenings training hyperventilation for SWB. In 2 days I'll be wiping all my electronic devices and In 3 days maybe 4 I'll be running away without no one knowing. Tokyo is big, I know nobody will miss me but if they do it will be hard to find me. I don't know yet if I'll leave "notes" but probably I'll be venting about everything and everyone on my socials when im ready to go. Maybe I'll do a goodbye thread but if gets in the way I might just go without one. I am so hurt and tired of this.
Good luck on your journey to CTB. I hope you find peace!
 
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I hope you're not attempting complete with that.
 
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I see. For full - 10mm nylon or polypropylene rope. Also if you want to induce hyperventilating without the effort, try exhaling on an air duster instead. Both on AZ.
 
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NightshadeDreamer

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You're braver than I am! Good luck. Hanging seems so scary
 
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angel_cries

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It will be delivered tomorrow. Ty for the suggestion.
I see. For full - 10mm nylon polypropylene rope. Also if you want to induce hyperventilating without the effort, try exhaling on an air duster instead. Both on AZ.
You're braver than I am! Good luck. Hanging seems so scary
I AM scared. But if hanging is my only option, so be it. Still trying to get my hands on SN tho. Today I sold almost everything I own (wich is not much btw) but if someone willing to sell me 30g of SN by hand I can pay up to 5.000 dollars in yen cash. I'll try SWB before hanging but I don't think I'll be successful with it.
 
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To me it's really understandable feeling so tired of suffering here, I wish you the best of luck with your plans.
 
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I see. For full - 10mm nylon or polypropylene rope. Also if you want to induce hyperventilating without the effort, try exhaling on an air duster instead. Both on AZ.
Do shibari ropes not work for full?
 
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Apr 3, 2026
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Bought shibari ropes as recommended for hanging and I'll be spending my evenings training hyperventilation for SWB. In 2 days I'll be wiping all my electronic devices and In 3 days maybe 4 I'll be running away without no one knowing. Tokyo is big, I know nobody will miss me but if they do it will be hard to find me. I don't know yet if I'll leave "notes" but probably I'll be venting about everything and everyone on my socials when im ready to go. Maybe I'll do a goodbye thread but if gets in the way I might just go without one. I am so hurt and tired of this.
for me ppl doing this has balls of steels.

dont vent on your socials. do time scheduled messages.
in case it doesnt work out its gonna be ugly.

make it in a way that even if it doesnt work out that everything just can resume without having to deal with the damages.

here al;ways here if you need a chat or 2
 

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