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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,887
I'm told very often, and for a long time now, everywhere I go in real life, that I'm A beautiful soul A beautiful person That I have a very big heart, that I'm very kind...

Okay, but what's the point of all that? These are qualities that are useful for others... but for me? Do they get you a degree? Do they bring in money? Do they give you good health? Do they help you make friends (who aren't opportunists)? Do they help you attract someone (oh no, sorry, you're not good-looking, rejected)?

These qualities are absolutely useless in today's world... they're just a magnet for toxic, opportunistic, and malicious people.

I hâte this life
 
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doomedbynarrative

doomedbynarrative

Losing more of myself every day.
Jan 21, 2026
32
I feel you. A lot of people have very good things to say about me (though I am definitely a villain in a few people's stories) even when I don't think there's much good about me.

We live in a world that doesn't value these things. The universe does not care that we are good or kind or that we try to do good. And our society is increasingly becoming one that doesn't value those things either.

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jerkbybile

jerkbybile

SPIRAL OUT
Jan 21, 2026
13
i wish we lived in a world where kind people did not have to worry about being taken advantage of. it seems at this point there is little reward for goodness in our society. i am sorry you are feeling this way, and i hope someone will be kind to you.
 
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Deepdense

Deepdense

Student
Dec 30, 2025
144
Depending on the way you utilize these qualities, you can pull yourself up off of others.
 
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soul2realm

Member
Oct 12, 2025
177
You are right, they do feel useless at least for the ones who have them. But just like every day is a mystery, here is hoping that somewhere somehow a miracle does happen for the possessor of these qualities.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,887
J'aimerais vivre dans un monde où les personnes bienveillantes n'auraient pas à craindre d'être exploitées. Il semble qu'à l'heure actuelle, la bonté soit peu récompensée dans notre société. Je suis désolé que vous vous sentiez ainsi et j'espère que quelqu'un sera gentil avec vous.
Me too
 
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Dreamwalker

Dreamwalker

Time To Wake Up
Jan 21, 2026
21
I resonate with you !! Living in a perpetual state of anguish really teaches you the value of kindness. I feel like it can come quite naturally.
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Wizard
Jul 3, 2025
604
I'm told very often, and for a long time now, everywhere I go in real life, that I'm A beautiful soul A beautiful person That I have a very big heart, that I'm very kind...

Okay, but what's the point of all that? These are qualities that are useful for others... but for me? Do they get you a degree? Do they bring in money? Do they give you good health? Do they help you make friends (who aren't opportunists)? Do they help you attract someone (oh no, sorry, you're not good-looking, rejected)?

These qualities are absolutely useless in today's world... they're just a magnet for toxic, opportunistic, and malicious people.

I hâte this life
If I could have a functioning life I'd definitely give my best to be as you described a beautiful soul. I wouldn't give a damn if it won't bring me further to anything knowing in the end of the day that I do the right thing would be enough for me.
I get your point many see things like being polite etc as weakness but those people are idiots and if a person doesn't like you because of the reason how you look like then be happy it didn't work because who wants to be with some arrogant trash like that? You want someone who likes you for who you are
 
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