allKae
die
- Jan 14, 2024
- 39
I'm here writing this topic just to vent what I feel.
I maintain a boring routine every day, where every day it comes to my mind to commit CTB, but I don't do it, I don't try even though I want to. I plan to do this soon, but I'm waiting until I'm 100% ready. I suffer from constant anxiety, especially at night or early morning, where I feel insomnia and simply suffer in my thoughts, I want relief, and the only way is to die.
Who knows, maybe it would be my time soon. I'm alone part of my time, even though I'm surrounded by people, I don't get a feeling of being okay, I need to go. I have to go far away, disappear for full.
I have a best friend and she seems to be the only person who helps me and tries to pass on my strength even though she doesn't understand what I feel, I can trust her... however, I really need to go. I can't bear this pain that I feel every day. It eats away at me and fills me with loneliness and sadness.
I maintain a boring routine every day, where every day it comes to my mind to commit CTB, but I don't do it, I don't try even though I want to. I plan to do this soon, but I'm waiting until I'm 100% ready. I suffer from constant anxiety, especially at night or early morning, where I feel insomnia and simply suffer in my thoughts, I want relief, and the only way is to die.
Who knows, maybe it would be my time soon. I'm alone part of my time, even though I'm surrounded by people, I don't get a feeling of being okay, I need to go. I have to go far away, disappear for full.
I have a best friend and she seems to be the only person who helps me and tries to pass on my strength even though she doesn't understand what I feel, I can trust her... however, I really need to go. I can't bear this pain that I feel every day. It eats away at me and fills me with loneliness and sadness.
