Venting Tired of Family who believe they know how I feel.

[plzoffme]

My family knows I suffer from Bipolar but they act like they fucking understand my pain. They say things like, "You just got to keep going" Or "We understand what you are going through"... Oh really? You understand huh? You do not know the fucking half of it. Then they say, If you kill yourself you are just leaving the pain to us... They say it would be selfish for me to CTB but is it not fucking selfish to keep your family member suffering just so they are still there for your own SELFISH needs?! If I had stage 4 cancer I would be getting flowers and understanding but since its all in my head its treated like I'm the one being fucking selfish. You know what, maybe I am being selfish. A person can only take so much before they fucking snap. They also use religion against me saying well god would not allow it! Ohhh really? But god allows people to go into schools and kills little kids! I am just so fucking done with everything. I am going to CTB and I hope they fucking feel my pain so they get humbled.

 

[joshardy]

Staying alive just for family, especially when they low key kind of hate you has always confused me. Like if you think im such a burden then why not just let me fucking die you know? Anyway, sorry you have to deal with this, I hope it gets better.

 

[plzoffme]

Staying alive just for family, especially when they low key kind of hate you has always confused me. Like if you think im such a burden then why not just let me fucking die you know? Anyway, sorry you have to deal with this, I hope it gets better.

Exactly, and the truth is nobody takes you seriously till shit hits the fan and you CTB.

 

[joshardy]

Exactly, and the truth is nobody takes you seriously till shit hits the fan and you CTB.

Even an attempt just gets seen as attention seeking and not real. Like no I just love to slash at my skin its so great. Family is the fucking worse.

 

[Kassender]

Same they have this way of just invalidating everything you say

like ´oh but x has problem too, he´s doing fine´

a polite way to shut you up. Ive stopped sharing personaly.

 

[Off_Switch]

Unfortunately, they won't ever realize the magnitude of what we are cursed with, until we are gone.

 

[Dejected 55]

The family I have that I think cares only knows the platitudes. I don't blame them for that, but I wish they would just say they don't have words rather than lean on platitudes that I tell them mean nothing. "It can get better" or "You should try therapy" or whatever... I would rather have silence than nonsense.

The family I have that only wants me around for selfish reasons because I have given them money in the past... I don't give two fucks about.

 

[rainatthebusstop]

They say it would be selfish for me to CTB but is it not fucking selfish to keep your family member suffering just so they are still there for your own SELFISH needs?! If I had stage 4 cancer I would be getting flowers and understanding but since its all in my head its treated like I'm the one being fucking selfish.

Gotta love the age old "Oh, but it's so selfish of you to kill yourself because other people will be sad" argument. I was also sad when I had to put down my pet but you know what would have been selfish? Letting her suffer any longer than she needed to.

I'm sorry OP, that shit is just straight hypocritical and it sucks ass