fallingbehind
Passed down like folk songs
- Mar 22, 2025
- 28
Every sunday my brain starts melting, I cant go to work tomorrow. I cant.
My internship is Monday-Friday. Its a social work internship where I am made to interact with the most depraved of society.
At one point in time, I thought that if I could "help" others, then maybe I would be able to find some purpose, some reason to exist. But I despise my degree, and I hate work period. And if it wasnt for my dad, I wouldnt have gotten this shitty fucking job. I regret every single choice I have ever made. I wish I had died as a teenager, I wish I didnt get brainwashed into thinking I could ever make any kind of "good" impact on society, I hate that I was brainwashed into not ending it by my shrink all those years ago. She knew I had no ambition, no talent, no capability for anything beyond fucking around online all day, and she still went ahead and lied to me for months. Fuck psychiatry. Fuck work. Fuck college. Fuck this.
My internship is Monday-Friday. Its a social work internship where I am made to interact with the most depraved of society.
At one point in time, I thought that if I could "help" others, then maybe I would be able to find some purpose, some reason to exist. But I despise my degree, and I hate work period. And if it wasnt for my dad, I wouldnt have gotten this shitty fucking job. I regret every single choice I have ever made. I wish I had died as a teenager, I wish I didnt get brainwashed into thinking I could ever make any kind of "good" impact on society, I hate that I was brainwashed into not ending it by my shrink all those years ago. She knew I had no ambition, no talent, no capability for anything beyond fucking around online all day, and she still went ahead and lied to me for months. Fuck psychiatry. Fuck work. Fuck college. Fuck this.
