Discussion Thoughts on staying awake some days before taking the sn so that I will be in deep sleep before I feel the effects?

[HopefulSleep]

I have the idea to stay up some days until I can barely keep being awake and then start the procedure of anti emetics and benzos and then after taking the sn lie in my bed and sleep.
My hope is that I will instantly be in deep sleep and the sn effects won't awake me and I will die in my sleep.
Is this just some dumb optimistic thinking or does this make sense?

 

[Valky]

it does sound like a good plan at first but I think there are just too many risks. Imagine just falling asleep after taking the meds but before being able to take the SN lol. Also, your nerves might just keep you awake so it's no use. Additionally, passing out from SN works rather fast, I am not sure if it's worth torturing yourself with no sleep for this.

 

[HopefulSleep]

Imagine just falling asleep after taking the meds but before being able to take the SN lol.

Yea that could be problematic with benzos.
I thought about taking the sn directly after the minimal onset of the benzo, for Alprazolam it would be 20-40 minutes and for Clonazepam 20-60 minutes, so directly after 20 Minutes of taking the benzo, the danger would be that I would then feel the sn effects if the onset takes longer for me.

Also, your nerves might just keep you awake so it's no use.

Depends on the sn symptoms I think.

Additionally, passing out from SN works rather fast

I would prefer a death that feels like sleeping, I don't know why but death that doesn't feel like sleeping kinda scares me and I don't know how passing out feels.
Besides that I think it will lower my si if my body thinks it is just going to dream forever even though this sounds weird.

I am not sure if it's worth torturing yourself with no sleep for this.

It is not that much of a torture, often did that si that in the next day I could sleep like a bay cause of sleep deprivation.

 

[Valky]

Depends on the sn symptoms I think.

I am not Talking about any Symptoms but being nervous about the fact that you know you are going to ctb.

I would prefer a death that feels like sleeping, I don't know why but death that doesn't feel like sleeping kinda scares me and I don't know how passing out feels.
Besides that I think it will lower my si if my body thinks it is just going to dream forever even though this sounds weird.

It doesn't, but sadly what you want is just not achievable in this society, except you are lucky enough to get accepted for an assisted suicide.

It is not that much of a torture, often did that si that in the next day I could sleep like a bay cause of sleep deprivation.

I do that too but I assumed that you were talking about more days, or did I misunderstand that?

 

[PurpleParadigm]

Adrenaline is a hell of a thing. In war, soldiers sometimes did not notice they were shot or otherwise injured until the fighting subsided. With SN the main issue is vomiting and dosage from what I understand.

 

[HopefulSleep]

I am not Talking about any Symptoms but being nervous about the fact that you know you are going to ctb.

I think if I think that I am just going to sleep and won't wake up it will calm me down.

It doesn't, but sadly what you want is just not achievable in this society, except you are lucky enough to get accepted for an assisted suicide.

Maybe it will work with this idea or at least be close.

I do that too but I assumed that you were talking about more days, or did I misunderstand that?

My record was being awake for 2 days, I think that should be enough.
Everyday is mental torture anyway so sleep deprivation wouldn't be that bad for the outcome.

Adrenaline is a hell of a thing. In war, soldiers sometimes did not notice they were shot or otherwise injured until the fighting subsided.

I don't think I will feel much adrenaline if I know that I will finally find peace after sleeping if it works correctly.

With SN the main issue is vomiting

How can I quietly vomit?
And after vomiting if I take another glass how likely is it that I will vomit that out too?

and dosage from what I understand.

How should you fuck the dosage up?
Isn't it just 25g in 50ml water or elsewhere I read that obese people should take up to 35g, so what dose should I take?

 

[imissmykitten]

How can I quietly vomit?
And after vomiting if I take another glass how likely is it that I will vomit that out too?

I don't think there is many ways to make it quieter, but if you can feel yourself close to puking, maybe turning on the sink, the shower or something can help turn the sound down a bit. (or loud music, but this one doesn't always work depending on your household).

 

[HopefulSleep]

maybe turning on the sink, the shower

For the sink the one in the toilet is weak but the one in the bathroom is louder but I don't get how I can excuse it to shortly go in the bathroom just to turn the sink on.
For the shower it is worse, it should probably be loud enough to mask the puking completely if I stand in there but then I am afraid that I will get unconscious in the shower and then get found cause it can take up to 4 hours.
Also I don't know when and how often I puke so I don't know when I should be in the bathroom then.
I just don't have an excuse but I can work with your idea I think.

 

[sorella santini]

I did exactly that- I stayed awake the night before- then initiated my sn plan the next day…took the benzos and I told myself I was just going to lay down for a few minutes…

Well, I fell asleep and completely missed my window of opportunity. So my advice is know your timing with the benzos.
I plan to try again tho.

 

[HopefulSleep]

I did exactly that- I stayed awake the night before- then initiated my sn plan the next day…took the benzos and I told myself I was just going to lay down for a few minutes…

Well, I fell asleep and completely missed my window of opportunity. So my advice is know your timing with the benzos.
I plan to try again tho.

I will just play video games until I take the sn and then I will take my nap.