Method thoughts on my method?

[thelittleprincess]

What I'm thinking is waiting for it to start snowing a lot, then drive out to this isolated spot in the middle of nowhere. I'd bring a couple of alcohol bottles with me, get drunk out of my mind and then cut my arms/wrists open. I've self-harmed while drunk before and I can go extremely deep without fully feeling it. I would not do it in my car as I treasure that shitty thing and don't want any stains on the seats, I'm leaving it for my little brother when he's old enough to drive.
The isolated spot is by an abandoned gravel road, I have literally never seen anyone else around there and while it is near a highway no one ever bothers to go over there. I go there pretty frequently but no one close to me knows where it is.
I refuse to drunk drive so I'd start drinking after I get there, maybe shed my coat so the cold aids in killing me. I haven't done too much research on the effectiveness on this since I'm using a public network and I'm worried about search results getting flagged, if that's even a thing.
I find something poetic about blood on snow, so I know I want to wait until there's actually snow on the ground. Even if I somehow don't bleed out, I could freeze to death, or maybe I'll finally get alcohol poisoning.
Thoughts?

 

[itsgone2]

I hate saying this but it's snowing pretty heavily here and it looks very pretty. So right now the scene you're painting has appeal.

I looked into hypothermia and it doesn't take long. But you'll have a choice to get back in the car and I think your body will do that. The bitter cold is so painful. For people that die that way when lost or something, it just be awful.

 

[Gangrel]

to be frank, it sounds awful, bleeding out in the bitter cold is probably as unpleasent as one can go but i wish the best for you

 

[thelittleprincess]

to be frank, it sounds awful, bleeding out in the bitter cold is probably as unpleasent as one can go but i wish the best for you

I hate saying this but it's snowing pretty heavily here and it looks very pretty. So right now the scene you're painting has appeal.

I looked into hypothermia and it doesn't take long. But you'll have a choice to get back in the car and I think your body will do that. The bitter cold is so painful. For people that die that way when lost or something, it just be awful.

Being drunk affects the ability to perceive and react to cold weather, and if I walk out a bit into the fields while drinking I figure I'll be too disoriented to make it back to my car. I want to do this at night and there are no streetlights out there, so it'd be pretty dark. Could be wrong though. Everything feels much warmer and more pleasant when I'm drunk, hence why I believe it could work to numb the pain. I don't want a painful passing, just a meaningful one.

 

[Pru]

I have performed this method and was unsuccessful. Incredibly unsuccessful, despite severing my tendons clean through. This is my experience only I do not wish to tell you what to do. First of all, being inebriated made cognition less than ideal, so the act itself was more than sloppy. The 'bravery' the alcohol provides is less effective when it disables precision. That being said, once my tedons were no longer able to perfom, I waited hours, sitting in the driver's seat behind the wheel, to bleed out/pass out, then didn't and had to wait for an excruciatingly long amount of time to finally decide to pseudo drive without being able to use my hands to a friends house to seek help. I was simply unable to finish the task. Back then, there were no cell phones so you had to make due with what was and figure it out (which wasn't easy being inebriated). I can't imagine the trauma my friend suffered having to witness the aftermath. She never spoke to me again. Can't say I blame her. At the hospital, the nurse outright laughed at me and called out/mocked my deeply executed failure. It took many months for my severed tendons to heal properly enough to lift things with weight or use with skill again. Frankly speaking, after almost 4 decades they still pain me when the weather changes or during the winter if my desk top is cold. It's like having a tens unit on a lower setting all day long combined with more accute 'buzzes' every half minute or so. On top of that, the cuts did not initially form flat scars. For many years they were bumpy, awkwardly thick, very sensitive to touch (think about how often you rest your wrists on something when you type on a keyboard) and this being the third try, the previous scars, both horizontal and vertical, are haphazzardly and awkwardly zigzag, and often are spotted during job interviews or dates, if I am not careful. Imagine your interviewer catching a glimpse of that. That was my third and last try with this method, my first two being more half hearted and less informed. For me, this is not a viable method and I have ended up with many years of pain, discomfort and embarrassment. After all these decades, I still have scars that people raise their eyebrows at if they catch a glimpse. AKA at every doctors visit when the nurse checks my pulse, I get the shocked side eye.

 

[Captive_Mind515]

I have performed this method and was unsuccessful. Incredibly unsuccessful, despite severing my tendons clean through. This is my experience only I do not wish to tell you what to do. First of all, being inebriated made cognition less than ideal, so the act itself was more than sloppy. The 'bravery' the alcohol provides is less effective when it disables precision. That being said, once my tedons were no longer able to perfom, I waited hours, sitting in the driver's seat behind the wheel, to bleed out/pass out, then didn't and had to wait for an excruciatingly long amount of time to finally decide to pseudo drive without being able to use my hands to a friends house to seek help. I was simply unable to finish the task. Back then, there were no cell phones so you had to make due with what was and figure it out (which wasn't easy being inebriated). I can't imagine the trauma my friend suffered having to witness the aftermath. She never spoke to me again. Can't say I blame her. At the hospital, the nurse outright laughed at me and called out/mocked my deeply executed failure. It took many months for my severed tendons to heal properly enough to lift things with weight or use with skill again. Frankly speaking, after almost 4 decades they still pain me when the weather changes or during the winter if my desk top is cold. It's like having a tens unit on a lower setting all day long combined with more accute 'buzzes' every half minute or so. On top of that, the cuts did not initially form flat scars. For many years they were bumpy, awkwardly thick, very sensitive to touch (think about how often you rest your wrists on something when you type on a keyboard) and this being the third try, the previous scars, both horizontal and vertical, are haphazzardly and awkwardly zigzag, and often are spotted during job interviews or dates, if I am not careful. Imagine your interviewer catching a glimpse of that. That was my third and last try with this method, my first two being more half hearted and less informed. For me, this is not a viable method and I have ended up with many years of pain, discomfort and embarrassment. After all these decades, I still have scars that people raise their eyebrows at if they catch a glimpse. AKA at every doctors visit when the nurse checks my pulse, I get the shocked side eye.

Did you sever the artery? It can't be very easy to do the second wrist with one badly damaged?

There was another person around here username Linda I think who was planning to use hypothermia out in nature. Based on reading her posts, I don't think cutting your wrists is actually necessary for this method. If the conditions are right, hypothermia will get you pretty quick. And it's relatively peaceful once you get past the initial shivering phase and start feeling sleepy. From what I've read with mountain climbers, it's actually not a bad way to go relative to other more scary methods.

 

[Pru]

I don't remember doing the second one, but later, could see it was much sloppier and jagged and wandered of into places that made no sense. That cut did the most nerve and tendon damage. How? Who knows? I'm unsure if I cut the artery or not. I had no idea what I was doing, and was very impulsive with no well thought out plan. From the end result, probably not. I can see the allure of the hypothermia. It sounds like it could be peaceful. I know when I am able to, it will not be the wrists. That altered my life so drastically, even to this day. I will be sure of my method and take concrete steps that it is swift, effective and others are not around, I believe steps to ensure SI could not alter the end result might be better thought out. Surviving is not ideal for me.

 

[thelittleprincess]

I have performed this method and was unsuccessful. Incredibly unsuccessful, despite severing my tendons clean through. This is my experience only I do not wish to tell you what to do. First of all, being inebriated made cognition less than ideal, so the act itself was more than sloppy. The 'bravery' the alcohol provides is less effective when it disables precision. That being said, once my tedons were no longer able to perfom, I waited hours, sitting in the driver's seat behind the wheel, to bleed out/pass out, then didn't and had to wait for an excruciatingly long amount of time to finally decide to pseudo drive without being able to use my hands to a friends house to seek help. I was simply unable to finish the task. Back then, there were no cell phones so you had to make due with what was and figure it out (which wasn't easy being inebriated). I can't imagine the trauma my friend suffered having to witness the aftermath. She never spoke to me again. Can't say I blame her. At the hospital, the nurse outright laughed at me and called out/mocked my deeply executed failure. It took many months for my severed tendons to heal properly enough to lift things with weight or use with skill again. Frankly speaking, after almost 4 decades they still pain me when the weather changes or during the winter if my desk top is cold. It's like having a tens unit on a lower setting all day long combined with more accute 'buzzes' every half minute or so. On top of that, the cuts did not initially form flat scars. For many years they were bumpy, awkwardly thick, very sensitive to touch (think about how often you rest your wrists on something when you type on a keyboard) and this being the third try, the previous scars, both horizontal and vertical, are haphazzardly and awkwardly zigzag, and often are spotted during job interviews or dates, if I am not careful. Imagine your interviewer catching a glimpse of that. That was my third and last try with this method, my first two being more half hearted and less informed. For me, this is not a viable method and I have ended up with many years of pain, discomfort and embarrassment. After all these decades, I still have scars that people raise their eyebrows at if they catch a glimpse. AKA at every doctors visit when the nurse checks my pulse, I get the shocked side eye.

Thanks for your input. I'm sorry you had to go through that. Do you think it could be effective if I skipped the cutting part and just went straight for drunken hypothermia? I don't want to risk survival if I do end up committing to this method.

 

[tarnishedstoner]

Doesn't seem like a good idea.
Also, take a look at this. These are the methods that you should avoid.

 

[Pru]

For me, it would be too risky. I am unable to speak to what would be effective for you as there are too many intricacies involved. I would do as much research before hand to make sure I understand what might happen that I had not thought of. I just know cutting wrists is not effective for me.

 

[interna]

i agree with others in this thread. it's a good idea on paper but execution is highly risky.

 

[Captive_Mind515]

Thanks for your input. I'm sorry you had to go through that. Do you think it could be effective if I skipped the cutting part and just went straight for drunken hypothermia? I don't want to risk survival if I do end up committing to this method.

Homeless people die on park benches all the time from getting drunk and falling asleep in cold weather… so it's certainly possible. But it's different when you're doing it deliberately. You would need to remove any possibility of backing out. Like hiking into remote wilderness and chaining yourself to a tree or something. That's what crossed my mind when considering it as a method. I'd definitely want something to knock me out before the most uncomfortable phase of the hypothermia kicks in too. Maybe even something stronger than alcohol.