ive noticed nowadays when i think about cbt it doesnt make my stomach drop anymore. before i would immediately start thinking about all the people i might hurt if i go but i realised that due to me having mental health problems for as long as i can remember, im probably better off. because I'll be getting rid of everyones burden of me.
ive also been looking into what happens after death. im not very religious but im open to anything that's not heaven and hell type thing. a lot of people think death is basically going out like a light. you no longer exist and theres nothing. i feel like to some that's peaceful but it kinda scares me. i guess if there's nothing it wont even matter. it'll just feel like im going to sleep.
im kinda excited I'm not gonna lie. i feel like i could sleep for hours on earth and it still feel like nothing. there's a show im currently watching thats ongoing and i lowkey wanna see how it ends. maybe that will be my cbt date. i need to figure out who to write letters to.
ive also been looking into what happens after death. im not very religious but im open to anything that's not heaven and hell type thing. a lot of people think death is basically going out like a light. you no longer exist and theres nothing. i feel like to some that's peaceful but it kinda scares me. i guess if there's nothing it wont even matter. it'll just feel like im going to sleep.
im kinda excited I'm not gonna lie. i feel like i could sleep for hours on earth and it still feel like nothing. there's a show im currently watching thats ongoing and i lowkey wanna see how it ends. maybe that will be my cbt date. i need to figure out who to write letters to.
