Those who self harm

[Nightfoot]

Do you think your self harm experience has made it easier for you to attempt CTB?

 

[Dumbass]

Not really, no. The only exception for this is my attempts that include self harm since it's slightly less dreadful than attempts where I do something I'm completely unfamiliar with, but methods that include cutting are pretty unreliable anyways.

 

[Life]

No it comes from a different place than being self hating.

 

[darksouls]

no, my self-hatred is very strong and my arms look awful, but I am trapped in my fortress of solitude, not able to commit

 

[Nightfoot]

I've read a couple of theories on suicide that posited that engaging in non suicidal self injury can habituate someone to fear and pain, increasing their capacity to inflict lethal injury on themselves. It sounds like that isn't always the case. I'm sorry you all are suffering and I hope we all find peace.

 

[overmorrow]

no, not really, I'm still death scared of it

 

[Re62]

No, it has become a coping mechanism of sorts now, hiding the cut marks on my hands is increasingly becoming more and more annoying. I cut myself whenever I just can't handle life.

 

[autumn68]

it mostly just calms me down when i'm spiraling. it might help if i could slit my wrists or something but that's not a particularly viable method so no, not really.

 

[Forveleth]

No. While both come from the idea of relief from suffering, killing myself is a huge leap from a few cuts.

 

[true-ending]

not at all... its the same as when i first hit the fat of my arm. i was so scared i ended up crying! humans only like what they can feasibly control, and death is the one thing we can never understand.

 

[beandigger404]

Yeah. i mean my method of choice is literally cutting so....

Other than that, I've been desensitized to "life threatening" situations since I cut veins almost every time I relapse and I just don't have any sense of self-preservation anymore. I think it will be fairly easy/easier to ctb next time I attempt because of the fact that my survival instincts are barely present.