Those who chose SN. How scared are you to drink it on a 5-point scale?

[lawlietsph]

5, because of the throwing up-fast heartbeat combo.
and now because i saw the video about the guy who filmed himself dying from SN..
it looked waaaaaaay too long for me. idk if you feel anything at all or you pass out completely, but 30+ minutes of weird breathing really made me question this method

 

[kopebaldy]

The same for any other methods.

5

Doing them isn't a problem, failing to ctb with them terrifies me to no end.

 

[LittleBlackCat]

5. I'm very scared

 

[Hellis]

I drank SN and still have extra because I ordered it weird like a dumbass. Lost a chunk of money on my tomfoolery too.

I don't remember my attempt with SN, don't know if I finished the cup. However, I feel too scared to try it again. Maybe it was the dying, maybe it was the shitty hospital stay, but I'm at a full 5.

I kinda just have my SN hidden away in a drawer and I just stare at the drawer sometimes and feel like I'm dying (not actually, but generally a physical pain comes with it) usually at 3 am when I wanna sleep. Can't psych myself into doing it.

 

[UserFromNowhere]

3-4 depending on the day. I'm not worried about throwing up. My SI with SN is too high. Partial or full hanging I don't have the same fear with, but they keep failing to bring me death; still, I keep trying. But something keeps throwing me off taking SN, letting it all come to an end. Perhaps it's because I feel like the choice to die by rope still gives me some control over it, where I feel SN wouldn't, or perhaps because I still struggle to embrace the permanence of death that SN would ensure.

 

[Ambien addict]

I drank SN and still have extra because I ordered it weird like a dumbass. Lost a chunk of money on my tomfoolery too.

I don't remember my attempt with SN, don't know if I finished the cup. However, I feel too scared to try it again. Maybe it was the dying, maybe it was the shitty hospital stay, but I'm at a full 5.

I kinda just have my SN hidden away in a drawer and I just stare at the drawer sometimes and feel like I'm dying (not actually, but generally a physical pain comes with it) usually at 3 am when I wanna sleep. Can't psych myself into doing it.

can you tell us what went wrong?

can you tell us what went wrong?

was it painful?

 

[Freedomm]

Right now I'm thinking 1. But when I have a drink in front of me, I don't know how I'm going to behave. The only thing that comforts me is that after 20 minutes of discomfort, I will be dead.
All that scares me is vomiting. For some reason, I'm more afraid of her than of the pain. I'm afraid of choking on my own vomit. The rest doesn't seem scary to me.

 

[fedup1982]

4.9 / 5 in case "difficulty breathing" is anything like what I experienced trying to Kms with argon

 

[kagebunshin]

3-4 depending on the day. I'm not worried about throwing up. My SI with SN is too high. Partial or full hanging I don't have the same fear with, but they keep failing to bring me death; still, I keep trying. But something keeps throwing me off taking SN, letting it all come to an end. Perhaps it's because I feel like the choice to die by rope still gives me some control over it, where I feel SN wouldn't, or perhaps because I still struggle to embrace the permanence of death that SN would ensure.

I sympathise with this and is why I've ended up choosing a different method. Something about the powerlessness of SN, where rather than actively and physically taking your own life, you're lying down and waiting for the substance to kill you, is very difficult for me to accept. Methods like hanging and self-injury are entirely you, you have full control over what is happening and when. With SN, you hand the reins over to the poison and wait to see how it affects you. I think that's hard for a lot of people.

 

[Hellis]

can you tell us what went wrong?

was it painful?

Texted a friend who was far away what I was doing and the mf had my neighbors number who contacted my family? Wasn't really conscious for the series of events so idk who found me. No memory past a point and even leading up to it so idk about pain, sorry to disappoint. Recovery was hell.

 

[MyLifeisHell]

Evidently very scared.

 

[unluckysadness]

Since a few days I'd say 2 or 3. I said 5 in a previous post but things got worse since. My method is almost ready, I've written my will and my goodbye letter with other things. My major issue now is : who will find my body ? It bothers me a lot. I wish to take SN at home and be found by cops but I don't know how to do it properly

 

[Xiaojiu]

4

I'm chronically ill and disabled. And idk how the experience is going to be because I don't have the full protocol