Silent_cries

Silent_cries

Tired of fighting the system just to get nowhere..
Aug 10, 2021
1,409
Mostly just curious, but also looking for ideas I can use to fight my own SI.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,503
Honestly I hope in the case of an attempt I'm in so much desperation and hopelessness that SI will be easy to defeat. My method of choice is CO (or if I can get hands on certain drugs/meds I'd use an OD) both methods may not have a very strong SI as basically it can be arranged like going to sleep. That's my strategy for now.
 
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qw3rty259

Experienced
Jun 19, 2023
265
When you'll be really ready, there will be no need to fight it, so stop pushing yourself I guess. Personally I think that hanging is the best way. Once it's done - there is no way of coming back (if you planned everything well of course)
 
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kilowatt

kilowatt

Guns don't kill people I kill people
Sep 9, 2023
377
Alcohol as a precaution, but I already know how to get myself in ''the mood'' in order to make sure I push through it with determination
 
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letsgetittogo

letsgetittogo

Barbiturate Summer :p
Nov 11, 2023
202
SUBSTANCES 💯
I know lots of people don't feel like they need them, and can ctb just through sheer willpower. Personally though, I have a pretty anxious disposition, which has pulled me back from the brink of dying several times

Next time i attempt I will be as sedated as I need to be to not freak out when I ctb
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
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SUBSTANCES 💯
I know lots of people don't feel like they need them, and can ctb just through sheer willpower. Personally though, I have a pretty anxious disposition, which has pulled me back from the brink of dying several times

Next time i attempt I will be as sedated as I need to be to not freak out when I ctb
What substances? 👀 btw I liked your cat pfp, it was cute
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
804
I'm planning to do full suspension where I will pass out almost immediately so hopefully that will take care of it.

I did have a precious attempt foiled by SI (automatic after I was already unconscious) and, in hindsight, I probably should have handcuffed myself to possibly prevent it.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
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Some sort of benzo 🤞
 
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letsgetittogo

Barbiturate Summer :p
Nov 11, 2023
202
What substances? 👀 btw I liked your cat pfp, it was cute

Depends on the method I end up using. Alcohol is a really good one, but it doesn't really go well with N or SN.
In that case, I'd go with weed and pills, I've tried Xanax a couple times and it was really nice :p

Also that's my Roomate's cat 🐱 he's a shithead but he's really cute
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

The past never dies.
Apr 25, 2023
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Since I don't have any access to benzos and can't use alcohol SN, etc. I will have to fight an epic battle with my survival instinct, I don't think it will go completely and I don't think I will ever be 100% ready. So I will try to go through it when the SI is relatively low. I will always remind myself of my reasons and my miserable life in order to strengthen my resolve.
 
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Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
When I meant it but it failed I my SI was so quiet it might as well have been silent. But I do have a few benzos which I may or may not use.
 
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mtoro998

Experienced
Feb 29, 2024
268
Im hoping that my anti anxiety meds will help with that.
 
billie

billie

sad and suicidal
Mar 31, 2024
408
I will overcome my SI without alcohol or drugs
 
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72shane

New Member
Apr 3, 2024
2
I'm thinking lots of vodka, no sleep for a night before, then crawl in my tent with my burned down charcoal. Was planning SN but it's sounds complicated to get what's needed. I'm als9 building a firearm but really don't want to go out like that.
 
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WaitingAllMyLife

Member
Jul 4, 2022
94
I never used to worry about SI. It wasn't even a thought in my head. But after finding this site, it started to terrify me. The one thing I have found that helps is rephrasing it in my head from suicide/killing myself to just going to sleep forever. One sounds so violent and final (which I appreciate, but my inner brain goes to town with) and the other, so peaceful.
 
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Ernest1964

Specialist
Jan 6, 2023
363
I have never ATTEMPTED suicide. I have no intention of attempting suicide. When I CTB, I will succeed. I suppose that, as a Buddhist I will meditate and get myself into a state where my mind is not thinking or obsessing over anything. I would take the Meto. a few hours a head of time, Open and pour out the two bottles of N into a large glass, put the nose plug over my nose, drink down both bottles fairly quickly, and follow the N with something sweet (I've read that Bailey's Irish Cream is suggested, though I don't drink alcohol so I wouldn't know). I would then lie down in bed and...
 
gabmor4

gabmor4

I want to rest
Oct 21, 2023
17
Por el momento estoy planificando utilizar el estrangulamiento de sangre o benzos. Quiero algo tranquilo (¿?) y que no impacte tanto a la persona que me encuentre, quien sea. Estoy en un departamento compartido, así que son las mejores opciones, supongo.

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At the moment I am planning to use blood choke or benzos. I want something quiet (?) and that doesn't impact so much the person who meets me, whoever it is. I'm in a shared apartment, so they're the best options, I guess.
 
Ww42

Ww42

Experienced
Feb 24, 2024
277
Depends on the method. Alcohols the #1 SI depressant for most cases. Thats why something like 70% of suicides have had alcohol in their system at the time of their death
 
LunarGirl

LunarGirl

tired of the never ending cycle
Apr 4, 2024
25
Also curious on this, tried to go a few years back (suspension hanging cutting off blood flow) and as I started blacking out my SI took over and stopped me. Annoying that my body wants to fight my brain...
 

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