I can't beat it

I can't beat it

How can I be detached
Dec 7, 2023
14
Anything can be summarized
 
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the_path_of_sorrows

Different routes, same destination
Nov 26, 2023
112
Every single day is blurred. Nothing makes me content, not even gym. It's getting harder and harder to continue this suffering. I've given up on trying to pretend that I'm fine in front of others. I can't hide the darkness in my eyes, it's showing, the Death that's about to take over my physical body is already shining within.
 
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Battered_Seoul

Experienced
Jun 13, 2018
260
Generally, I've been able to maintain some kind of ironical distance from the overall state of the world and even derive some indirect solace because its blatant shittiness validates my pessimistic worldview.

This year is the year I've realized that irony won't save me from anything. My heart is broken, and I'm torn up and on my last legs.
 
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Kit1

Enlightened
Oct 24, 2023
1,099
I thought that I had a bad start to the year. Right now, it feels like it has got worse as I just want to die and do nothing else except end my life.
 
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Aim

Aim

šŸ¤
Sep 12, 2023
945
Worse! :(
 
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SVEN

Enlightened
Apr 3, 2023
1,780
Futile and pointless.
 
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USER80709

Member
Apr 30, 2023
44
This year has been insane
 
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NancyVicious

NancyVicious

Member
Aug 21, 2023
36
The most painful year of my miserable existence. The worst lows. Some genuine moments of joy that were swiftly taken away again
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,878
No matter what happens, it's just another year closer to death. All that existence is, is a process of waiting around to die, we are all slowly dying, destined for nothing but to be forgotten about. To exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking ending up in a situation of much worse torment at any moment. I see death as the only way to escape from all future suffering in this cruel and futile existence.
 
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Falling Slowly

Student
Sep 9, 2023
133
Same shit, different year.
 
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ForeverBroken

ForeverBroken

Memento mori
Jun 17, 2023
134
Shit show and a dumpster fire.
 
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falling_snow

Mage
Aug 9, 2023
516
Hoped to get better. Didnt
 
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Sleeper System

Sleeper System

Z z Z z Z z Z z Z z Z
May 5, 2022
766
I was doing okay. This month ruined everything. I'm back to feeling like all this struggle im going through is for nothing at all. I just want to be free from the burden of expectations. I want to quit my job, give all my stuff away, have one final meal with my family, and just get on plane and find a nice remote beautiful place to put a bullet in my head.
 
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F@#$

Freedom seeker
Nov 8, 2023
876
Shit
 
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MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
1,628
Woke up 365 times and immediately thought about death every single time.
 

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suicidestyle

suicidestyle

Member
Sep 9, 2023
47
started with the hopes that everything would get better and ended with it all downfall, never getting better, confirming my thoughts of hope being nonexistent, hope never gets you anywhere, everyday passes by and even at the end its all pointless
 
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leavingthesoultrap

(į“—_ į“—怂)
Nov 25, 2023
1,212
This year was the hardest year of my life by a lot.
 
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Deleted member 65988

Guest
Absolutely shit. On a 13 year streak at this rate.
 
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river

river

Member
Nov 7, 2023
21
endless cycle of disappointment and hopelessness
 
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Deleted member 65988

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endless cycle of disappointment and hopelessness
Yeah, pretty much this over and over and over and over and over and over again
 
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Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

NULL
May 27, 2020
1,593
This year has not been too "bad" for me overall; yes there have been some awful days, but mostly the year has been okay. The only serious issue(s) are dental related, and these issues have just started to happen within the last 2 weeks or so; it has made me feel a very strong mix of anxiety and anger, so much to the point that I feel sick. I think that this feeling of frustration comes from the fact that human teeth cannot fully repair themselves from damage, and in some circumstances this means that they must be extracted which can ruin the shape of your face. I cannot stop thinking about the constant fear of my teeth cracking and being irrepairable. Plus this is all happening at the end of this year, and I have a strong sense that there will be more complications which will continue into next year, and this is partly why I am feeling angry about all of this.

So to summarize: a mostly "okay" year ruined by certain issues near the end.
 
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underscore_nine

underscore_nine

the sweet release
Feb 17, 2023
149
Anything can be summarized
My suicide wrapped goes something like this: failed attempt, family hates me, friends leave me, no one wants to be around me, loneliness, decide to make things worse intentionally, came to the conclusion im damaged goods
 
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