Venting This world is hell

[Sadbanana]

I seriously believe it, what else would this be. Because then why can't we leave, why is it so hard. Everyone is trying to keep us alive, yet death might be the only thing that can free us from our suffering.

It's getting worse from day to day. I feel so numb when it comes to anything resembling joy, but my grief and pain is stronger than ever.

I just want to leave. The amounts of times I was falling asleap wishing that I wouldn't ever wake up. If there was any benevolent god, the least they could do is to fufill this wish.

If there is purpuse to live and my existence. I just don't feel that the purpuse has anything to do with me. I have nothing out of it. It's like when people fight wars for "greater causes". I don't care why I'm here, I just want out, I don't owe anyone anything.

My story is in dire need of conclusion. When now I think about death, I feel light and pleasant. Unless I think too graphically about the method or something. But if I only think about what it will be after, I feel only freedom, there is no fear anymore. Why should I be afraid of nothing?

 

[mysticatedwine]

right on! you don't owe anyone shit.

whatever you do i hope you find peace, you deserve it

 

[tears and vomit]

I've never felt so much pure and utter despair until these last two years
I really do believe that death is the only true freedom

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, it truly is the most hellish place and all I want is to be free from it, I just want to never suffer ever again in this dreadful, torturous existence, to me existence truly is an abomination that just causes harm and suffering and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I always suffer so much as a result of existing, I hope you find peace.