This site being down most of the day the last few days (at least on my end) has sucked because I'm really not in a good place these last few days.

[bellaisdonewithlife]

For a few years now I didn't want to make it to 30, which happens later this month, so it brings up conflicting feelings of wanting to see how my project goes or taking myself out before I get to try things I was interested in trying since only recently. I should know within a month or so if it's going to work out with the projects, so maybe I can wait and see how it goes first before making the permanent decision of taking myself out.