Story This should be goodbye

[GeorgeJL]

Update,
I just woke up. I feel like complete shit. I can barely function. I'm not seeking attention or sympathy. I've been in a really dark place this past week and I acted impulsively last night. All I remember is trying to get to the bathroom, but I didn't make it. I fell over and puked all over the floor. My roommate said he found me passed out next to my bed on the floor. He called a couple of my friends and the took care of me until I just woke up. There is puke everywhere.

I just want everybody here to know something about me. I'm a loving, caring person. I consider this site to be a savior of sorts. I don't mean any harm. I'm sorry if I've been comming off as rough. My birthday was a week ago and that was my original date to ctb. Instead I just drank myself into oblivion and did some crazy shit by impulse. It was not my brightest moment.

Each and every one of you are beautiful people. Always remember I love you. With all of my heart.

Thanks for being here.

I'll be around for a while so if anybody wants to talk feel free to message me.

This is why people shouldn't act on impulse and they should get a tried-and-true method.

 

[woxihuanni]

That's because you have compassion

Which has made me a very boring, uninteresting person to some I would have the attention of, unfortunately. :) Soon over, soon sleep.

 

[Blackjack]

Update,
I just woke up. I feel like complete shit. I can barely function. I'm not seeking attention or sympathy. I've been in a really dark place this past week and I acted impulsively last night. All I remember is trying to get to the bathroom, but I didn't make it. I fell over and puked all over the floor. My roommate said he found me passed out next to my bed on the floor. He called a couple of my friends and the took care of me until I just woke up. There is puke everywhere.

I just want everybody here to know something about me. I'm a loving, caring person. I consider this site to be a savior of sorts. I don't mean any harm. I'm sorry if I've been comming off as rough. My birthday was a week ago and that was my original date to ctb. Instead I just drank myself into oblivion and did some crazy shit by impulse. It was not my brightest moment.

Each and every one of you are beautiful people. Always remember I love you. With all of my heart.

Thanks for being here.

I'll be around for a while so if anybody wants to talk feel free to message me.

I know how badly you wanted last night to be your final goodbye, so I'm sorry that didn't happen for you. And I'm sorry you feel like complete shit. I wish there was something I could do to ease your pain. I know we all wish that for each other. I'm here any time you want to chat. xo

 

[Blackjack]

He made some attention threads before, so pretty sure he will login again.

Yeah that wasn't necessary @Dutch.

 

[Dutch]

Yeah that wasn't necessary @Dutch.

True, but i always say what i think, sometimes it's better to keep my mouth, but as you see, he came back again.

 

[Neville1]

OP lied last week about acquiring N, about testing it and probably about B not answering inquiries about N and then admitted to lying about the testing.

Based on these histrionics is it terrible to speculate that the OP is an unreliable narrator?

 

[woxihuanni]

OP lied last week about acquiring N, about testing it and probably about B not answering inquiries about N and then admitted to lying about the testing.

Based on these histrionics is it terrible to speculate that the OP is an unreliable narrator?

Aha, OP is on my ignore list so I have no idea. He is on my ignore list for being a universal love kind of person, I don't trust that stuff.

 

[spanishguy22]

Attention seeking by posting fake suicide attempts is just annoying and trivializes it, I dont really care about the need for attention. A ot of us want or crave attention but generally dont go around making cheap posts to decieve people to get it.

 

[Blackjack]

Attention seeking in suicide is just annoying and trivializes it, I dont really care about the need for attention. A ot of us want or crave attention but generally dont go around making cheap posts to decieve people to get it.

Listen folks, he was in a lot of pain, compulsively took a bunch of pills mixed with whatever else & thought/hoped he wouldn't wake up today. Which is not the same as purposeful deception. Lighten up, it could very well happen to any of us on a particularly bad night (or nights.) If he's banned, then that will be his consequence. He doesn't need the added chorus from the peanut gallery. Be kind, for everyone is fighting a battle you know nothing about. xo

 

[Alchemist]

Nice now he is self banned, are you happy guys???

Maybe learn to read the rules, specially the one about goodbye threads?

 

[Kirkscoobz]

Peace and love my friend, recover then think again of another method, sleep well if you can.

 

[BPD_LE]

We love you @Centerism ❤

 

[Rachel74]

This is why you should not do goodbye threads.

 

[purplemoon]

@Blackjack
Thank you.

hi
i forgot to ask you please if Arsenic or Cyanide ? in fruit pits/seeds is more potent and if one had to choose just 1 fruit etc to try like 20 seeds or pits to ingest (all crushed in a bag with a hammer)....

which fruit would you choose?

Thank you and sorry i'm confused on Arsenic versus Cyanide