Venting This is so unbearable

[kunikuzushi]

Nothing helps me cope. I just spend the whole day trying to think of things to do to make the pain stop, but nothing works anymore. It's unbearable.

I have to lie to everyone because no one wants to be around someone this miserable. No one wants someone this pathetic, who can't feel anything good no matter what they try. I wish I could be alone, but I need people so much.

What a terrible day. Another useless day, doing nothing, staying alive for no reason other than to be tortured.

 

[tears and vomit]

And to add to that, there's nothing but dread to look forward to. I want to be excited for tomorrow. To be honest, we can't do anything but endure everything that's going on. I hope you feel better. Maybe try to get some rest and watch something you used to watch as a kid to clear your mind that's what I do.

 

[kunikuzushi]

And to add to that, there's nothing but dread to look forward to. I want to be excited for tomorrow. To be honest, we can't do anything but endure everything that's going on. I hope you feel better. Maybe try to get some rest and watch something you used to watch as a kid to clear your mind that's what I do.

There's nothing good to look forward to, and even if there is, it just disappears and leaves me feeling worse than if it didn't happen. I can endure this for no reason, but I'd rather just stop the cycle.

Also, unfortunately I can't remember anything from my childhood so I can't get comfort from anything I used to watch back then. Thank you for the kind words. I wish you comfort and peace.

 

[MidnightTrains]

I wish I could be alone, but I need people so much.

Too real.
I crave attention so badly but everyone I know pisses me off. Not because they're bad people but because there's just something wrong with me. I feel so utterly alone. Every day is a battle to find something to live for.
I just wanted to share my experience.
I hope you're able to find some peace.

 

[kunikuzushi]

Too real.
I crave attention so badly but everyone I know pisses me off. Not because they're bad people but because there's just something wrong with me. I feel so utterly alone. Every day is a battle to find something to live for.
I just wanted to share my experience.
I hope you're able to find some peace.

Thank you for sharing. I feel the same. I can only blame myself for the awful things I feel from other people. Something is wrong with me.
I'm sorry you also feel this terrible loneliness too. And thank you so much, I hope you find peace too.