thinking

[cath55555]

been thinking again lots recently. it seems I always end up back here at this point. I feel so terrible today.

I had a health scare due to my bulimia and I messaged my friends to say I couldn't make it out today- literally out of the half a dozen in the groupchat, one has replied. everyone read it. I even mentioned I'd had to call the out of hours doctors... it's like they just don't give a shit about me. I feel so left out and depressed.i ranted to my other friend and sent her the screenshot of what I said and the single response with the other read receipts and even my other friend said it was like they were singling me out a bit by not bothering to even send a well wish or a "that's okay that you can't make it today"... idk. I feel lost, lonely and stuck.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that so many people are too self centred to ever care, other people just cannot be relied on but anyway it must be tiring what you have to endure, I wish you the best.

 

[cath55555]

I think that so many people are too self centred to ever care, other people just cannot be relied on but anyway it must be tiring what you have to endure, I wish you the best.

thank you. I agree, even if they don't mean to come across like that, sometimes it just makes me think they don't actually care about me, which hurts considering how much energy I've invested into these friendships.