Thinking about last moments

[divineprana]

It's sad the last thing I'm ever going to feel is my head exploding. I chose a shotgun because I don't want to die nauseous, but I guess I'm sad about the whole thing. I haven't picked a date and I'm still holding on but I know that's how I will go eventually. I can feel that inner light inside of me getting dimmer. I stop feeling the urge to reach out or go to therapy or act like I have something to live for. Friends and therapy and hobbies feel like burdens when the essence of who you are is diminished. I tried so hard to fight that shit but the day is coming I'll see through all my cope and cope no more forever

 

[IschemicZeitgeist]

I actually think it shows a lot of bravery choosing to go out this way. Maybe it's because i'm not that familiarized with guns, so the idea kinda scares me, i guess.

I'm also all too familiar with what you're describing. It's almost like the person you're supossed to be shows up a little less each passing day.

 

[iw2begone]

just make sure you don't permanently maim yourself instead because it will make life so much more difficult

 

[fitoo5999]

Gun has 90% rate success so you'll be fine. I find it so violent but well death is violent.