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hmnow

Experienced
Jul 29, 2025
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Apparently, you have a greater chance of being successful if you have attempted to CTB before.

Will you feel lucky next time?

How do you feel about that if this is not your first attempt?
 
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Carrot

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Feb 25, 2025
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I'm not sure, I hope so/ All my attempts were have-assed. Next with SN will be too, probably just fasting, maybe some AE, and hopefully well dosed SN. Might put my phone away and lay down so I cannot get help.
 
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kagebunshin

Student
Dec 17, 2023
132
My only real attempt was the stabbing last year which was clearly ineffective. My next and final attempt will be SN. Considering how lethal SN is, I believe it will be successful. I'll be sticking to the protocol.
 
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Ambien addict

Student
Jul 27, 2025
159
My only real attempt was the stabbing last year which was clearly ineffective. My next and final attempt will be SN. Considering how lethal SN is, I believe it will be successful. I'll be sticking to the protocol.
I don't know...I'm so confused..I look on this site every night all night to stand the pain and find a method! All I keep coming up with is another od!! I want to find a partner to shoot me.
 
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Canri

Member
May 22, 2025
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i hope so. i know a lot more than i did before, and i have a lot of access to things now. i'm really confident
 
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Freedomm

Freedomm

Student
Aug 2, 2025
183
If I can suppress my SI, then it will happen. I'll try to beat my brain.
 
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kagebunshin

Student
Dec 17, 2023
132
I don't know...I'm so confused..I look on this site every night all night to stand the pain and find a method! All I keep coming up with is another od!! I want to find a partner to shoot me.
I understand you, there are no methods out there that feel 100% right. I actually really want to try stabbing/cutting the carotid artery because for some reason I feel most comfortable with dying via physical trauma, and from past experience I know that I could do it psychologically. The risk of survival is so high, however. It would be beyond devastating to survive again.
 
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purplesky9

Specialist
Sep 21, 2024
301
Apparently, you have a greater chance of being successful if you have attempted to CTB before.

Will you feel lucky next time?

How do you feel about that if this is not your first attempt?
I don't think I'll succeed next time because I have terrible luck. My first time was a failure because I had no idea how much for actually had to take to succeed at an overdose.
 
Freedomm

Freedomm

Student
Aug 2, 2025
183
Apparently, you have a greater chance of being successful if you have attempted to CTB before.

Will you feel lucky next time?

How do you feel about that if this is not your first attempt?
Next time I'm gonna use sn, a method that won't leave my brain any chance. I tried to hang myself, but my self-preservation instinct was holding me back.People can see marks on their necks, I don't need them. With SN, I'm pretty sure that I will succeed.
 
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Thomas Rekowicz

Member
Mar 10, 2025
67
I had attempt by poisoning i survive only because i was too emotionally attached to one person and i did not want her to be left alone. Doctor said that if pothasium as antidotum would be inject into me 30 minutes later my organs would shut down. I made tremendous research about euthanasia. My whole master's dissertation was about euthanasia and law about right to die. I recived highest possibile mark for it so yeah i will be succesfull af next time. SI is my only problem IT is strong and wild af in my case. SN all the way.
 
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