Things that make life not worth living.

[Un-]

Add your own if you want to. These are things going through my head, since.. Yeah.

Ironically, I hate making posts like this.. Hyper analysing things, drawing to conclusions that everyone already bloody knows. But for some reason, these small things seem very important when you're getting closer and closer to darkness.

I think loneliness is one of the biggest ones. If you don't have people in your life - people that you're close to or can confide in - you just live a life that doesn't matter. It doesn't matter if you're dead or alive, sad or content.. If no one cares about you anyways. It's important to.. Realise.. That you need real life friends. Not just online. I learned that the hard way and got severely burned. Online friends can't and don't fill that hole that only physical friends can fill. There's verbal intimacy, but there's no physical intimacy. There's no physical solidarity. There's no physical appreciation of one another.

The other is not being able to enjoy anything. Whether that's because of anhedonia, or because you're in so much pain that you can't appreciate anything.. Because that's what life's about. Enjoying things, no matter how small. And if you can't.. I can't even enjoy food, anymore. For Christmas, my family cooked gammon, turkey, steak, spinach and pumpkin.. We had homemade trifle, ice cream, candy and the whole nine yards, and I didn't enjoy any of it. It was as if my taste buds died. The list goes on of what I don't enjoy... It makes it difficult to get up.. A psychologist that I talked to yesterday asked me that question. When I told her a little bit about my head, she asked me "I don't know how you get up everyday".

The last thing would probably be an inability to be. Yeah. "An inability to be". Life is problems.. Constantly.. And being alive is to overcome those problems in some fashion, to go to a place.. A higher goal. Whatever it is. Look at the grind mindset, or religion or whatever. But, for whatever reason, if you can't solve these problems.. Or if you can't even envision a goal or a place you want to be in, then there's nothing that life can offer you. I don't want to get better because I don't care. I look at the things that people enjoy and I can't understand it. I don't care about being in a relationship anymore. I don't care about family. I don't care about wealth, or hedonism or anything. There's nothing that I can be, or can receive that will make my suffering feel worth it. So, there's no point to confronting the problems in my life.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Being in the wrong body/born the wrong sex.

Being a wage slave when you just don't enjoy being alive.

 

[GasMonkey]

Low genetic quality (short, bald, unattractive, myopic, endomorph, shit face, etc).

 

[hopelessgirl]

Total meaninglessness for me :-) feels like I'm a vampire or something. Like time stopped. Like I've lived an eternity. Like it's neverending. Feeding this body. Cleaning it. Cleaning up after it. I hate it.

 

[redeyepiranha]

Everything became worthless for me (relationships, friendship, wealth, success, studying, tasty food, traveling, tv shows etc.) I even laugh automatically, it's all fake and shallow, wearing clown mask every day is exhausting

 

[-Raven's Night-]

The source of everything would be autism, ASD.
Recently nihilism crept upon me.
I was really determined about my dream and thought that I had a meaning in my life when I was 15 that was to help people who struggled with the same emotional issues with me, suicidal thoughts, etc. But I was in an echo chamber. I broke that echo chamber after joining here. I almost had my everything out there my public account for mental health advocate (you may think I was stupid, sigh, I WAS a teen and yeah.) but I became a pro-choicer later.
saw posts complaining about those social media accounts publishing a generic suicide prevention post and actually 'they don't give a fuck', I felt messy. Guess I was one of them and I assume I really care but powerless to change the fucking world making suicide less of a stigma or taboo or making the world a easier place for people to survive. Then my life collapsed, considering that being autistic for me reflects on the way I view the world, paranoid I know.
I entered my adulthood. but found a lot of things meaningless, endless disputes. Even being in the same shoes, people attack each other. Being an adult for me means dealing with a bunch of things I'm powerless to deal with, I find no meaning to. I absorb the pain around the world I hate it being such a place full of suffering for others and I see no points why it still exists. I decided to ctb at 27 then. That's too much out there makes life not worth living.
others told me that good things in this world is more than bad things, others told me to mind my own business in life and stay away from the negativity, yet I see no points. I might be happy if I'm ignorant about what is going on, but, what's that for. We simply live for those seconds of euphoria, and those fleeting happiness. I found my purposes but it died. I know whatever I do this world is still full of suffering. I need to debate with those who disagree me, I hate debates because that makes me feel my existence annoy that person, I'd rather stay silent, I can't endure the feeling that I am causing trouble to others but I did cause a lot due to my unstable mental conditions.
And these are the daily messy thoughts going around in my head, life being a bunch of chemical reactions
I wish there's a planet without suffering, simply, that would make me less craving the peace that possibly only exist in non existence. but I'm dreaming.
basically, these thoughts driving me mad are another reason life is not worth living.

 

[TakeMeBack07]

Number 1 has to be social incompetence

 

[Reallysad]

Loneliness,waves of depression,fake folk on social media,folk stabbing you in the back, losing my kids and the love of my life.I could go on

 

[Suicidebydeath]

Family, other people, health conditions, PTSD, anhedonia.

Damn I miss my cats :(

 

[liana]

The one you love excusing your abusers.

 

[Tired and Done]

I see so many different problems here from everyone and I just can't understand what kind of universe would allow this kind of pain to exist. I am a ruin of a human being yet my heart continues to beat and my lungs keep breathing. Why can my body not give in? I do not deserve to keep living but I'm still too scared to die. I am so broken, so poor, so stupid and so fking ugly. Close to destitute with another person's life in my hands when I cannot even bear to live my own. What do I do when I kill myself? Do I kill her too, so she won't suffer? Do I leave her alone to face everything on her own? What is my choice? How does this end? So little time left to decide. It has to stop. There is no other way out for us.

 

[Akinano]

Incompetence coupled with expectations and lies. The knowledge that you will not be able to enjoy the rest of your life. The knowledge that you will lose all of it pretty soon.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

Mental illness (to me)

 

[aforestfire]

being screwed up in the head is enough, not being able to feel genuine happiness. i'm always waiting for things to end, i'm always waiting for the next person that i meet to hurt me somehow. i'm always scared, just waiting, waiting, and waiting for something bad to happen; that makes me so lonely and disconnected from others, i don't think a life where sharing experiences and things like that with others is next to impossible is a life that's worth living. definitely not for me.

 

[outrider567]

Add your own if you want to. These are things going through my head, since.. Yeah.

Ironically, I hate making posts like this.. Hyper analysing things, drawing to conclusions that everyone already bloody knows. But for some reason, these small things seem very important when you're getting closer and closer to darkness.

I think loneliness is one of the biggest ones. If you don't have people in your life - people that you're close to or can confide in - you just live a life that doesn't matter. It doesn't matter if you're dead or alive, sad or content.. If no one cares about you anyways. It's important to.. Realise.. That you need real life friends. Not just online. I learned that the hard way and got severely burned. Online friends can't and don't fill that hole that only physical friends can fill. There's verbal intimacy, but there's no physical intimacy. There's no physical solidarity. There's no physical appreciation of one another.

The other is not being able to enjoy anything. Whether that's because of anhedonia, or because you're in so much pain that you can't appreciate anything.. Because that's what life's about. Enjoying things, no matter how small. And if you can't.. I can't even enjoy food, anymore. For Christmas, my family cooked gammon, turkey, steak, spinach and pumpkin.. We had homemade trifle, ice cream, candy and the whole nine yards, and I didn't enjoy any of it. It was as if my taste buds died. The list goes on of what I don't enjoy... It makes it difficult to get up.. A psychologist that I talked to yesterday asked me that question. When I told her a little bit about my head, she asked me "I don't know how you get up everyday".

The last thing would probably be an inability to be. Yeah. "An inability to be". Life is problems.. Constantly.. And being alive is to overcome those problems in some fashion, to go to a place.. A higher goal. Whatever it is. Look at the grind mindset, or religion or whatever. But, for whatever reason, if you can't solve these problems.. Or if you can't even envision a goal or a place you want to be in, then there's nothing that life can offer you. I don't want to get better because I don't care. I look at the things that people enjoy and I can't understand it. I don't care about being in a relationship anymore. I don't care about family. I don't care about wealth, or hedonism or anything. There's nothing that I can be, or can receive that will make my suffering feel worth it. So, there's no point to confronting the problems in my life.

Well said--loneliness and not being able to enjoy anything in life, no goals, no happiness, suffering

 

[hamvil]

Hi @Un- I really do not think there is anything wrong with overanalyzing things.

I think the three things you mention have a common root, which is having a life that is built on a single pillar, sometimes this pillar is work, other times is marriage, and others are maybe social life (partying, enjoying sex etc). When your like is built on only one of these pillar when this single pillar falls you experience all the things you listed (and more sometimes).

I built all my life around my career, I did not realize this at the time but also my studies where like this, i maximized the knowledge I could acquire even by joining study groups or clubs but without the goal of having ALSO good connections (unless this connection could provide some business utility). It worked well until I fucked my job due to poor social skills.

Other could have good friends but do poorly in work life, or good marriage as well.

Life is brutal and some of us are handed a good hand, meaning good social skills, a stable personality, even a good childhood, some of us not. At some point you reach the consideration that maybe it is not worth living this life as it is, that you had your turn and now it is over. In my case I do not see how another 40 years of this could be of any use. It is useless for me since I will not achieve anything good on the work anything, i do not have friends or family to enjoy, so... this is basically depression, should it be a reasonable cause for suicide (mean state sectioned suicide)? IMO yes but for other the conclusions is different.

 

[omlet]

Add your own if you want to. These are things going through my head, since.. Yeah.

Ironically, I hate making posts like this.. Hyper analysing things, drawing to conclusions that everyone already bloody knows. But for some reason, these small things seem very important when you're getting closer and closer to darkness.

I think loneliness is one of the biggest ones. If you don't have people in your life - people that you're close to or can confide in - you just live a life that doesn't matter. It doesn't matter if you're dead or alive, sad or content.. If no one cares about you anyways. It's important to.. Realise.. That you need real life friends. Not just online. I learned that the hard way and got severely burned. Online friends can't and don't fill that hole that only physical friends can fill. There's verbal intimacy, but there's no physical intimacy. There's no physical solidarity. There's no physical appreciation of one another.

The other is not being able to enjoy anything. Whether that's because of anhedonia, or because you're in so much pain that you can't appreciate anything.. Because that's what life's about. Enjoying things, no matter how small. And if you can't.. I can't even enjoy food, anymore. For Christmas, my family cooked gammon, turkey, steak, spinach and pumpkin.. We had homemade trifle, ice cream, candy and the whole nine yards, and I didn't enjoy any of it. It was as if my taste buds died. The list goes on of what I don't enjoy... It makes it difficult to get up.. A psychologist that I talked to yesterday asked me that question. When I told her a little bit about my head, she asked me "I don't know how you get up everyday".

The last thing would probably be an inability to be. Yeah. "An inability to be". Life is problems.. Constantly.. And being alive is to overcome those problems in some fashion, to go to a place.. A higher goal. Whatever it is. Look at the grind mindset, or religion or whatever. But, for whatever reason, if you can't solve these problems.. Or if you can't even envision a goal or a place you want to be in, then there's nothing that life can offer you. I don't want to get better because I don't care. I look at the things that people enjoy and I can't understand it. I don't care about being in a relationship anymore. I don't care about family. I don't care about wealth, or hedonism or anything. There's nothing that I can be, or can receive that will make my suffering feel worth it. So, there's no point to confronting the problems in my life.

Being ugly. Life isnt worth living when you're an incel

 

[BurningMan]

For me my life always feel like I always come up just short on everything I've ever wanted. Looks, personality, work, education, money… Everyone is always jumping leaps and bounds and I'm being left behind because I just MISSED it by a short step and I can never seem to get over the hurdle in stopping me from doing what I want in life.

I just don't feel emotionally connected to anyone anymore either. I feel like I'm floating through life and living in a fantasy world in my head where I'm the person I always thought I'd be, but I'm just a sad person living a sad life.

 

[Csmith8827]

Being harassed and like surveillanced all day...it's really just not worth it. It's not.

 

[SamTam33]

For me it's the collective functions and responsibilities it requires to live.

The things we have to do in order to gain social acceptance.

The stuff we have to participate in to maintain relationships.

Figure out how to keep warm when you're cold. How to obtain food when you're hungry.

You have to remember birthdays and go to weddings. You have to smile. Especially in America.

You have to figure out what you wanna be when you grow up. As if being something and growing up are a given.

Go to school, get a job, pay taxes, find someone stupid enough to love you if you're lucky. Birth defective kids so they can carry on your defective legacy.

Take a two WEEK vacation so you can spend the money it took you a YEAR to save.

Our entire lives are devoted to making, then giving money away.

Then you die.

Like being on the longest, scariest roller coaster ride - then getting flung off and dying at the end.

None of it is worth it. Life is just this stupid thing that happens.

 

[Sadgirldaisy]

Failing at any chance of building a meaningful life for myself. Every time I try and do better for myself, I fail. I'm just a failure and a waste of space and resources. I don't deserve to be here.

 

[Monkeyman]

For me it's the collective functions and responsibilities it requires to live.

The things we have to do in order to gain social acceptance.

The stuff we have to participate in to maintain relationships.

Figure out how to keep warm when you're cold. How to obtain food when you're hungry.

You have to remember birthdays and go to weddings. You have to smile. Especially in America.

You have to figure out what you wanna be when you grow up. As if being something and growing up are a given.

Go to school, get a job, pay taxes, find someone stupid enough to love you if you're lucky. Birth defective kids so they can carry on your defective legacy.

Take a two WEEK vacation so you can spend the money it took you a YEAR to save.

Our entire lives are devoted to making, then giving money away.

Then you die.

Like being on the longest, scariest roller coaster ride - then getting flung off and dying at the end.

None of it is worth it. Life is just this stupid thing that happens.

I think this is spot on. This system we live in is the source of so much grief and there's no real way out or any alternative (besides you know what) for those of us who can't help but feel all those social, emotional and economic duties are a constant burden.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's everything for me that makes this existence not worth it. Being here trapped in this world could never possibly be worth anything, it's all just unnecessary and it would had been better off if life was never a thing at all. Life is just a insignificant cycle of suffering, it's such an useless and tedious thing having the ability to exist. And anyway all that life is, is just a consequence of evolution with the fate of all those who exist being to deteriorate and die. There is nothing that could justify bringing life here and there is nothing to be gained by existing, instead there are only just ways to suffer more and be tormented, as with existing comes an unlimited amount of disadvantages to it.
The fact that existing beings have the ability to suffer is the most horrific and disturbing thing to me and it's the most rational thing to wish to be free from it all. Life as a concept holds no value and serves no purpose and I see no benefit to delaying the inevitable.

 

[foreverfalling]

Reality not aligning with the perfect world in my head

 

[markimobzzdeasui]

Life itself

 

[Helplessturtle79]

Being ugly. I'm trans. Nobody has every expressed remote interest in me and I just turned 24. I'm not smart enough for college, so I'm stuck hiding in the closet and working a dead end job that I can't advance past. The woman I have feelings for probably doesn't like me back. I'm just sick of suffering and being alone. Also, the state of the world. Capitalism. I fucking hate how materialistic and shallow and superficial everyone is. They look for any excuse they can to hate people over insane and baseless ideas rather than choosing to be a better world. I don't want to live to see the state of the world in the future.

 

[Wannagonow]

The list could be an endless one. But the one's I don't even have to think about are:

Loneliness, My spouse dying unexpectedly, Lifetime of Mental Illness, Lack of friends/support system, constantly broke, lack of courage and method to ctb right now.

 

[Un-]

Low genetic quality (short, bald, unattractive, myopic, endomorph, shit face, etc).

People always think that a person is their choices. I hate extremities.. Genes play so much into things.. My life may have been better if I didn't look repulsive. Sigh.

Total meaninglessness for me :-) feels like I'm a vampire or something. Like time stopped. Like I've lived an eternity. Like it's neverending. Feeding this body. Cleaning it. Cleaning up after it. I hate it.

Meaninglessness doesn't affect me. What DOES is realising that life isn't good at all. For me at least. I have no people, I have no enjoyment. So even if I continue living, I'm just maintaining my body, working, maintaining my body, working - over and over again until I die.

I WISH that was an oversimplification.

Incompetence coupled with expectations and lies. The knowledge that you will not be able to enjoy the rest of your life. The knowledge that you will lose all of it pretty soon.

I hope I fucking die soon.

being screwed up in the head is enough, not being able to feel genuine happiness. i'm always waiting for things to end, i'm always waiting for the next person that i meet to hurt me somehow. i'm always scared, just waiting, waiting, and waiting for something bad to happen; that makes me so lonely and disconnected from others, i don't think a life where sharing experiences and things like that with others is next to impossible is a life that's worth living. definitely not for me.

It definitely isn't for me. I'm living exactly like how you are, and it's not sustainable. It's not healthy. But it's almost unchangeable because of how deep it runs.

I think the three things you mention have a common root, which is having a life that is built on a single pillar, sometimes this pillar is work, other times is marriage, and others are maybe social life (partying, enjoying sex etc). When your like is built on only one of these pillar when this single pillar falls you experience all the things you listed (and more sometimes).

None of the pillars that an ordinary person has, are in my life. Due to reasons, but that doesn't matter anymore. Childhood is critical for your life. It's where you find the bricks for these pillars. And if you don't have those bricks, it's very likely you won't ever have those pillars in your life.

Likely. It's not definite. But trying to get into the dating market when you're 30, unemployed (or employed at a horrible job) with no social life - you're just asking to be walked over.

 

[thedaywillcome]

Very faulty wired brain cant stand that.

 

[FinalBossu]

American """health"""" care
Corpothieves must die