Venting they can’t be surprised at this point

[zieziewazie]

I have been screaming from the rooftops for help. I've told my loved ones how depressed I feel, how hard it is to wake up, how life feels void and meaningless, yet they do nothing? I don't blame them, they can't understand fully. I just wish they wouldn't act surprised when I finally CTB. I make these dumb mistakes, and they all act so angry at me, like i'm a nuisance. I don't know if they know they're the reason they make me feel this way, but I genuinely don't know any other way to take it? It's like they say this stuff to make me feel bad, but are surprised when I do? I hope they find peace and understanding after I'm gone. I only wish to make them happy. Just a little vent :)