These burning lights will be out by morning. (My goodbye post)

[BlackDragonof1989]

Safe travels, cheers mate.

 

[1234dave]

Man I wish we could all have one big session and finish the night with N as the sun was rising..

 

[Unloved soul]

I never talked to you Ben. I wish you the best. I hope you find peace. Safe travels, see you up there buddy.

 

[Kooz]

I personally will go for a nice glass of ice water if heaven exists.

With that though, I'll leave you with this. It's out of my normal to have a long post for goodbyes but I like you Ben. Plus, you're one of the people that took the advice of making sure you read and watched everything to make sure you knew how everything worked. As I said, the NN method will work on everyone. It's just their willingness to learn and to do it that actually usually messes up everything.

You've done great and I loved seeing your picture pop up in my notifications because I knew you were someone who listened and followed the instructions. I didn't really have to repeat anything to you which made me pretty happy heh.

On that note, I'll end this post with a quote.

"The so-called 'psychotically depressed' person who tries to kill herself doesn't do so out of quote 'hopelessness' or any abstract conviction that life's assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire's flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It's not desiring the fall; it's terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling 'Don't!' and 'Hang on!', can understand the jump. Not really. You'd have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling."

 

[BurningLights]

 

[Empty Smile]

Peace to you on your journey to the other side. Peace brother......

 

[bigj75]

Give me a margarita and a long Island ice tea. Can't wait to see you on the other side.

 

[MachineGunDani]

I wish u the best, nothing but peace

 

[Kooz]

Was able to sneak on my phone to post these... Here's some music that I love and that I wanted to share with you.

 

[NoOneKnows]

May everything go well for you Ben and you experience a much deserved peace. <3

 

[1234dave]

 

[Eowyn]

Dear Ben

May your final journey be an epic one
I hope the ride is smoother than a single malt
And gets you to where you want to be.

I'm also quite the whisky connoisseur myself.
Double Oban 14, neat, hold the ice.

Peace & ♡ x

 

[skitliv]

As I said elsewhere I always enjoyed your presence here, hope theres vodka tonics on the other side man! Safe travels

 

[Circles]

I hope the other side will treat you more kindly mate. I'll smoke a bowl in honor of you Ben, the guy with the badass Mohawk. You deserve some rest that you were deprived of for too long. Hugs brother.

 

[BurningLights]

Your words have reach my soul, what else can I say. I am truly touched, I am in tears as I write this.
I have finishedy pizza and cheesecake, last bit of weed smoked, had a lil trip,, and the whiskey is kicking like a mule. I can feel my time coming. I have written all your drinks on a piece of paper, I will put it down my top, so my soul can take to the bar, and if I am autopsied or whatever, they will be confused as fuck. Shhh. It's our lil secret...tick tick tick it's nearing....

I'm sorry I haven't replied to more, I just can't concentrate now, but I love you all so dearly @skitliv I haven't seen you around in ages, I'm sorry :(

 

[Dead Meat]

Best of luck to you Ben may you have a safe,pleasant journey and unrelenting peace

 

[Deivis]

Goddamn, man, I'm so envious that you can finally drop out of this hell of existence!!
I hope I'll master my method one way or the other, so expect me soon!

 

[BurningLights]

If you see this @Soon4me im sorry, I fucked our friendship up. I will carry that burden with me for eternity.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Damn I thought you had ctb already anyways now I have the chance, we haven´t talked but I definitely remember your avatar. I hope all will go well so your pain can end.

Also what method is you using if you don´t mind me asking?

 

[letmeseethedeath]

My name is Ben, and I'm gonna to CTB tonight. If anyone cares and is interested, I live in the Bournemouth area of the uk. IF it hits the news, that's the region you wanna look at.

So I don't really know what to say, I feel I've already expressed myself in my last couple posts.
This place has been the only place I feel somewhat comfortable, ALL you beautiful people, so caring, so much love to give, you're all deserving of peace, whichever way you choose to seek it.

I apologise for my...inability to connect with others, you all tried so hard, and I feel I never gave back, well, not recently anyway, you see I've lost that ability, along with my humanity, there is only one option for me now, now that I've burned every bridge and backed myself into a corner that I'm unable to leave.

I'm not going to name individuals, why make this personal now right?

But to everyone I have spoken to, be it brief or in depth, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking the time to care, speak to me, think of me, everyword that ever cross your lips (well, fingers). Thank you. And for anyone reading this i didn't speak to, I wish you well on your journey.

That's my table of accessories for the evening. I was going to post a recent picture, but I look like shit, it's me on the left and my brother (r.i.p) on the right, doing the ' joe strummer snarl'

I went saw my canine best friend today, I'm glad I done that.
I did fuck up though, I deleted all my accounts and what not, and lost all my numbers, so I won't be sending a timed text to anyone. Not what I wanted, I don't want to be rotting, oh well.

I've still got some bits to do, but I'm pretty much there. Thought I better write this before it gets too late.

Thank you to everyone.
Tell me your favourite drinks! I'll make sure they're on order for when you get to the other side, as I hear the bar is always open in the 4th dimension.
I will be waiting for you all, with my arms out stretched.

I love you all. May all your journeys find the peace you're looking for.

even though i never spoke to you, you seem a beautiful human so i wish you all the peace. rest in peace ben

 

[Chinaski]

Safe travels, Ben.

 

[BurningLights]

Signing out.
Love you all.
Peace love and happiness.

 

[Chinaski]

Can you pm me Ben? May I ask some details about your method that I didn't quite understand? I don't have the private messaging perk yet.

I'm loth to speak on behalf of someone else here, but l think your timing is off, and the "oh, you're ctbing right now? What method? Does it hurt?" posts which crop up in genuine farewell threads really irk me tbqh

 

[wanttodie]

good luck

 

[Kooz]

Night night, Ben.

 

[Dog Food]

Good luck. Hope you enjoy your final moments of this shitty life. We never spoke, but I knew you were a regular here.

 

[Kooz]

If you guys have shit to say about each other, leave it out of this thread.

 

[Swisher]

My name is Ben, and I'm gonna to CTB tonight. If anyone cares and is interested, I live in the Bournemouth area of the uk. IF it hits the news, that's the region you wanna look at.

So I don't really know what to say, I feel I've already expressed myself in my last couple posts.
This place has been the only place I feel somewhat comfortable, ALL you beautiful people, so caring, so much love to give, you're all deserving of peace, whichever way you choose to seek it.

I apologise for my...inability to connect with others, you all tried so hard, and I feel I never gave back, well, not recently anyway, you see I've lost that ability, along with my humanity, there is only one option for me now, now that I've burned every bridge and backed myself into a corner that I'm unable to leave.

I'm not going to name individuals, why make this personal now right?

But to everyone I have spoken to, be it brief or in depth, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking the time to care, speak to me, think of me, everyword that ever cross your lips (well, fingers). Thank you. And for anyone reading this i didn't speak to, I wish you well on your journey.

That's my table of accessories for the evening. I was going to post a recent picture, but I look like shit, it's me on the left and my brother (r.i.p) on the right, doing the ' joe strummer snarl'

I went saw my canine best friend today, I'm glad I done that.
I did fuck up though, I deleted all my accounts and what not, and lost all my numbers, so I won't be sending a timed text to anyone. Not what I wanted, I don't want to be rotting, oh well.

I've still got some bits to do, but I'm pretty much there. Thought I better write this before it gets too late.

Thank you to everyone.
Tell me your favourite drinks! I'll make sure they're on order for when you get to the other side, as I hear the bar is always open in the 4th dimension.
I will be waiting for you all, with my arms out stretched.

I love you all. May all your journeys find the peace you're looking for.

Ben, have a gentle journey....and pinacolda. I'll see you soon

 

[Smashingairwaves]

good luck, I hope you find the peace we're all looking for

 

[loz]

safe travels. <3