Hey BurningLights,
I started reading this thinking what a useless bastard i was for not popping in for a few days & missing my chance to say goodbye to someone who had in the short time i had been here, been nothing but kind caring & compassionate and honestly in that short time you had left an impression on me, so there i was reading & gutted that i had missed you.
Where you are at now, i understand that so well (i'd be deed already otherwise) I am so sorry for everything you have gone through the last few days, the anticipation the sense of relief and calm & yep even excitement, to the crushing awareness that its failed, confusion, pain and hope all mixed up in dispare (sorry dyslexic & tried for ages to work it out)
Its fucking shit eh.....
Anyways sorry for the ramble, just wanted to give you a virtual Hug.