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tapetum_lucidum

tapetum_lucidum

Member
Mar 12, 2023
57
I relapsed recently and I don't know why I ever stopped . My pain tolerance is shit now so I can't go too deep . But the pain only lasts a few seconds until the euphoria of blood cascading down my skin kicks in . I love this . I'm so sick .
This isn't encouraging it , SH is bad but I can't help but love it
 
SmellsLikeNapalm

SmellsLikeNapalm

You complete me
Aug 29, 2025
19
Nothing comes close to it

Wish I could the experience the feeling for the first time again
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
That's exactly what I've been telling people.
Sh is as good as any drug or a bottle of alcohol.
I have scars all over (they've become very noticeable) and I love just adding to them all the time.
 
tapetum_lucidum

tapetum_lucidum

Member
Mar 12, 2023
57
Nothing comes close to it

Wish I could the experience the feeling for the first time again
I vaguely remember my first time . I think I was 12 or 13 . I did it with a scissors , it didn't even bleed it was so shallow . It's been close to a decade since then and it's only gotten worse . Honestly I enjoy it more now than I did the first time haha .
That's exactly what I've been telling people.
Sh is as good as any drug or a bottle of alcohol.
I have scars all over (they've become very noticeable) and I love just adding to them all the time.
literally , it's so addictive . I love to get drunk and SH , it feels so good . I love and hate my scars at the same time , but I want more
 
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fuyuu

fuyuu

Member
Aug 26, 2025
25
i love it too. not so much the blood but there's something very satisfying about the initial pain as well as the scars it leaves behind.
 
CutToRelease

CutToRelease

It helps remind me I'm still here
Dec 31, 2024
141
The scars are nice. They act as a reminder of so many things. An just watching the blood trickle and flow down my arm is nice. Plus the single sharp flash of pain the just calm euphoria. Its nice. But other people don't see it that way. Cant help it tho. Probably die of it one day
 

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