HommeQuiDort
Member
- Jan 25, 2025
- 6
I never thought I would make my own post but I am in a rut with the recent economy and job market I made some very impulsive decisions that costed me all my money, my career and now I'm isolated and alone living with foodbanks. I am not able to go out and engage anymore as I lost my drive for people and my will to live, I've been a long term alcohol user and only recently I got myself to reduce my intake but the sensation of depression and hopelesness is always there. I know how to make a noose, I know a good place, there is just no will and hope I always come back to this mental state of square 1. I feel selfish for doing that, but at the same time I don't want to endure this pain anymore. I feel useless, encroaching 30s but I did nothing with my life. I am researching methods to end my agony, but I wouldn't mind to share a word with someone in a smiliar situation meanwhile.
