Kusogaki
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- Mar 22, 2023
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Recently I started therapy and I'm getting a psychiatrist very soon. I still live with my parents working on money to move out as I'm writing this.
My therapy sessions are over the phone through facetime. This was my 4th session with her. I don't
care to sugarcoated anything just straight to the point and very blunt. you could say. Mid-way through our conversation she asks me
about any suicidal thoughts or plans, I say ''I'm not considered be
''suicidal'' but it's in the back of my head.'' I also told her about my multiple suicide attempts but told her I was trying to get better.
(In reality, I have the means to ctb if I wanted.) but apparently, she took this to an extreme, she agreed with me she would talk to
me first about anything she says to my family. she lied.
Long story short the next day my mother comes to me straight face and asks '' Idd you try to OD on xxx ( meds)
I ask her why and she says my therapist told her that she was concerned for my health and well-being.
My mother didn't believe me that I tried to CTB. I've never had a good relationship with my mother and don't intend to do so.
I've tried many times to fix myself or change how I act to make her like me more. But now I honestly don't give a shit about
her or anything. My opinion is the only one that matters. That's my belief but it's safe to say I'm going to be the talk of the house for a while.
Overall, I've been lonely my whole life and hate having any conversations with family or anyone, but I am open to friends. If you have
any advice PM me or something.
My therapy sessions are over the phone through facetime. This was my 4th session with her. I don't
care to sugarcoated anything just straight to the point and very blunt. you could say. Mid-way through our conversation she asks me
about any suicidal thoughts or plans, I say ''I'm not considered be
''suicidal'' but it's in the back of my head.'' I also told her about my multiple suicide attempts but told her I was trying to get better.
(In reality, I have the means to ctb if I wanted.) but apparently, she took this to an extreme, she agreed with me she would talk to
me first about anything she says to my family. she lied.
Long story short the next day my mother comes to me straight face and asks '' Idd you try to OD on xxx ( meds)
I ask her why and she says my therapist told her that she was concerned for my health and well-being.
My mother didn't believe me that I tried to CTB. I've never had a good relationship with my mother and don't intend to do so.
I've tried many times to fix myself or change how I act to make her like me more. But now I honestly don't give a shit about
her or anything. My opinion is the only one that matters. That's my belief but it's safe to say I'm going to be the talk of the house for a while.
Overall, I've been lonely my whole life and hate having any conversations with family or anyone, but I am open to friends. If you have
any advice PM me or something.