The world is beating me down

[ThatStateOfMind]

The world just keeps beating me down. The most recent example is my car battery shitting the bed, it won't hold a charge. I might bring it to an auto shop to have it tested to see if it's the battery that's the problem. If it isn't, I don't know.

I've lost a lot of the things I've cared about in the past 5 years, multiple family members, my house and all possessions (house fire), my girlfriend (left me didn't die), many friends have left, I'm afraid I'll lose one of my dogs recently, he's old and blind.

I'm only sticking around for my mom, she cares too much for me to hurt her in the way that taking my life would. You guys here have been amazing to me, I didn't expect a lot of kindness coming from a forum like this, a lot more people than I thought would be are fairly positive thinkers here. I try to be but it's very hard for me, I'm typically a pessimist.

I hope I can get my car fixed soon.

 

[cassxtho]

Good job sticking around man, I know it's tough. I'm sure your mom is proud of you, not everyone can raise somebody who can take constant beatings like this without completely losing it.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I didn't know for example you lost your home and all your possessions. In light of that your fortitude is even more impressive. Not that that necessarily makes you feel better.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I didn't know for example you lost your home and all your possessions. In light of that your fortitude is even more impressive. Not that that necessarily makes you feel better.

Yeah I don't talk about it much, that might be the first time I've shared that on this forum. It happened back in 2018 and I have still have PTSD from it unfortunately.

Good job sticking around man, I know it's tough. I'm sure your mom is proud of you, not everyone can raise somebody who can take constant beatings like this without completely losing it.

Thanks and I think she is. It's hard sometimes but like I said I never want to hurt my mom that badly, I'm an only child so I'm the only one she's ever had.

 

[FuneralCry]

It undeniably is such a cruel world that we exist in and to me it's so incredibly awful how existing beings suffer all through no fault of their own, there could never be anything fair about existing here and it's just so terrible how things just go wrong and get worse. But anyway, best wishes.