Venting The waiting is so annoying

[almaPerdida]

I am just waiting my SN to arrive. I have luck to live in a country that has SN easily accessible.

However, even then, i can't ruin my friends Carnival by CTB. And i can't ruin my brother's birthday that's a week before mine. I have to wait for these events to pass, and that's so annoying.

All the stuff i used to enjoy aren't working to make me distracted anymore. I am literally just waiting a couple of months before 'yeeting' myself out of this world. I had promised myself i'd make my last days really enjoyable but i am out of ideas. I think i will just play videogames and go to a bunch of parties and do some drugs and that's it.

It's funny because i've changed my mind so many times already, if i was gonna CTB or not, and now that i'm decided, i have to wait anyway. Well there's that 1% chance that things get better by then, who knows? My letter is ready, and i made my plans to end it all. I feel so empty but so calm with my decision.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be a relief being able to access the SN so easily, I certainly see those with access to it as being fortunate. But anyway best of luck.

 

[almaPerdida]

It must be a relief being able to access the SN so easily, I certainly see those with access to it as being fortunate. But anyway best of luck.

One of the few perks of being born latino lol, and thank you a lot.

 

[Slow_Farewell]

Almost there, best of luck!

 

[almaPerdida]

Almost there, best of luck!

Almost! Thank you so much!