Venting The universe has given me the final okay to do it

[goldenwitch]

Despite knowing I would have to die, I've had a reason to keep going, something to look forward to. Right until today.

I feel so much more peaceful. No anger or regrets, I'm okay with leaving. I feel bad for my friends, but there's no reason for me to go back on this anymore, no reason for me not to do it, no reason to stay.

I have never thought more clearly in my life. It feels as though my heart has already gone.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I think that the universe has given me the final okay to do it too. 90% of the things I ever wanted to achieve or obtain, came to me with a lot of hardship and work (some things I never managed to obtain at all no matter how hard i worked or tried)

But when I went out to buy the means of my exit, the woman who worked at the chemical shop was unusually nice with me , and the man with the van who delivered the package was also nice and made an extra special effort to have my package delivered without any trouble. I think this is a sign that I'm going with the flow of the fate/destiny. I think that my time to exit this world, a world in which I never belonged to is finally coming up.

 

[lpdsvm]

I notice when I wanted to CTB or thought I would soon, people were nice to me. Maybe is a sorta paradox, phenomenon or overthinking looking for clues type of thing huh…

 

[thefarter]

Oh this is deeply relatable..

yeah but in reality it's just a bunch of people that want to mess with me :(
unfortunately, what they say really does hurt lmao i kinda wish it didn't..

oh well.. :P blehhhh
ive chosen Saturday as the day. i dont have work ‍ and hopefully my sasu partner will be able to meet up too and we will have SN together..

I notice when I wanted to CTB or thought I would soon, people were nice to me. Maybe is a sorta paradox, phenomenon or overthinking looking for clues type of thing huh…

omg it would be so cool if that happened to me.. genuinely.. if i felt less alone, i probably wouldn't be doing this. but alas, i approach the wrong people and i ask them to be my friend and they just say some hurtful stuff and im left with even less hope than i started with