NumbForLife
I was born numb and I will die numb.
- Jan 29, 2026
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I might have written this a few weeks ago, but I have more detail to add now. The ultimate goal would be to find someone in my area whom I'd pay to help me carbon monoxide in a place where no people would be at risk of harm. I don't want to say dream because I feel like that sounds too depressing.
I can imagine myself walking into a room and being knocked out instantly, maybe not instantly as I'm not quite sure how quickly it works even with a big amount of CO. And my life (the story of Bella) of endless struggles would be over at age 29… easily, painlessly, and peacefully. The only question remaining would be if I'd be in a better place or simply non-existent.
I can imagine myself walking into a room and being knocked out instantly, maybe not instantly as I'm not quite sure how quickly it works even with a big amount of CO. And my life (the story of Bella) of endless struggles would be over at age 29… easily, painlessly, and peacefully. The only question remaining would be if I'd be in a better place or simply non-existent.
