the rambles of a lonely girl

[rainydaysnail]

I'm so incredibly lonely. I'm 22 and I haven't had any real friends that I hang out with since I was 16 and in high school. No one I meet wants to keep me around as more than an acquaintance. All I do is go to the job I despise, come home, and sit in my room for literal months at a time watching my life pass me by. No one texts me, calls me, a couple people text to check in with me every once in a while. It makes me feel like there must be something fundamentally wrong with me. I feel like an alien. I try so hard to be a nice girl but nothing I do is enough for anyone to want to keep me around. Everyone else can see it too and its so so fucking embarassing. My younger sister hangs out with me out of pity because she knows I have no friends - but that's only if she doesn't have plans with her many friends. I've fallen into such a deep depression that I can't even bring myself to go do things I enjoy alone. I'm deeply unhappy all of the time and I don't know why I bother waking up every day to repeat the same thing. I'm clearly not meant to be here. I'm going to cry myself to sleep after posting this, and wake up in the morning to repeat the cycle again. I don't want to do it anymore. I'm exhausted.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I know what being lonely feels like. If you want a friend or someone to talk to feel free to message me.

 

[Kanau_Nano]

I really understand feeling and going through this. It's so painful. I'm hoping things get better for you bl33ding heart is very nice definitely talk to them if you need someone to talk to.

 

[behindtheveil]

I am sorry you have to go through all this. But these dry spells won't last forever. Some go through it at an early age and some later in life. Take it as a cocooning stage. And I am sure you will come out as a beautiful butterfly. Take care.

 

[qtk5436]

I'm so incredibly lonely. I'm 22 and I haven't had any real friends that I hang out with since I was 16 and in high school. No one I meet wants to keep me around as more than an acquaintance. All I do is go to the job I despise, come home, and sit in my room for literal months at a time watching my life pass me by. No one texts me, calls me, a couple people text to check in with me every once in a while. It makes me feel like there must be something fundamentally wrong with me. I feel like an alien. I try so hard to be a nice girl but nothing I do is enough for anyone to want to keep me around. Everyone else can see it too and its so so fucking embarassing. My younger sister hangs out with me out of pity because she knows I have no friends - but that's only if she doesn't have plans with her many friends. I've fallen into such a deep depression that I can't even bring myself to go do things I enjoy alone. I'm deeply unhappy all of the time and I don't know why I bother waking up every day to repeat the same thing. I'm clearly not meant to be here. I'm going to cry myself to sleep after posting this, and wake up in the morning to repeat the cycle again. I don't want to do it anymore. I'm exhausted.

I'm sorry you're dealing with that too. I understand to a certain degree, I don't know the last time I had a good conversation with someone who wasn't being paid to deal with me. Even though this likely means nothing I hope it gets better soon. And if you do want someone to talk to I would gladly.

 

[minsolive]

that sounds really difficult to deal with. while i don't know you or your circumstances i definitely understand feeling alienated and like people only like you sometimes or in a more surface level way. and i totally get feeling like your life is just passing you by and how exhausting that can be. if you ever want to talk or need a friend im here, feel free to message me! i hope you're able to get some rest tonight