RainAndSadness
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- Jun 12, 2018
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So I had another appointment with a psychiatrist a few days ago. It's a different psychiatrist, an older women and it was the second appointment with her. And it's another example of a bad psychiatrist because it was completely disappointing - again.
It's not like I'm surprised anymore. I'm not sad, you know. I was expecting it to go down like this. I knew this would happen and I'm not really looking to improve anymore at this point anyway. I know suicide is inevitable and I'm past the point of recovery. But I have to keep up the masquerade, which was the reason why I went to the appointment. I also need the prescription for sleeping medication, which is another reason why I even bother. But I have to pretend, otherwise it's gonna look suspicious. But my impression about the psychiatric system was confirmed again. And having this confirmed over and over again and basically being forced to witness their incompetence every single time is really frustrating.
So, let me explain what exactly happened: The appointment was set for Tuesday at 2pm. And I was pissed already when I arrived at her office because I simply knew it's a waste of time - therapy-wise. It was hot and I simply wasn't in the mood for this. And it appeared to me that she had the exact same thoughts about the appointment because she seemed very bored, tired and generally dissociated.
So she knows I'm coming to her because of depression and social anxiety, basically. I explained this to her the last time I had my appointment. But we didn't talk about these problems. We didn't talk about the reason why I went to this psychiatrist at all. We talked a little bit about the weather, about my transition (which isn't the reason I came to her), about appointments with other doctors and how I was feeling at the moment. That was it, some kind of shallow surface-scratching small-talk to beat the time, nothing else. We didn't address my depression, my social anxiety, my past, the medication I need - none of that. But these are the reasons why I came to her in the first place. And sometimes we would have really awkward moments of silence. Like, we would just sit there, for minutes, in silence and just... do nothing. She literally had her eyes closed and almost fell asleep. This is a psychiatrist with a license. Just think about this for a moment. I was so angry because she literally wasted my time with that nonsense. What's the point of this? They have clearly no clue what they're doing and it's a waste of time.
The posts in this thread of people all over the world with different backgrounds explaining their negative experience prove that this is a serious global issue that needs to be addressed. So why isn't the media talking about this, instead of coming at this forum from all sides and trying to tear it down. You want to fix peoples life? Fix the system. It's as simple as that.
It's not like I'm surprised anymore. I'm not sad, you know. I was expecting it to go down like this. I knew this would happen and I'm not really looking to improve anymore at this point anyway. I know suicide is inevitable and I'm past the point of recovery. But I have to keep up the masquerade, which was the reason why I went to the appointment. I also need the prescription for sleeping medication, which is another reason why I even bother. But I have to pretend, otherwise it's gonna look suspicious. But my impression about the psychiatric system was confirmed again. And having this confirmed over and over again and basically being forced to witness their incompetence every single time is really frustrating.
So, let me explain what exactly happened: The appointment was set for Tuesday at 2pm. And I was pissed already when I arrived at her office because I simply knew it's a waste of time - therapy-wise. It was hot and I simply wasn't in the mood for this. And it appeared to me that she had the exact same thoughts about the appointment because she seemed very bored, tired and generally dissociated.
So she knows I'm coming to her because of depression and social anxiety, basically. I explained this to her the last time I had my appointment. But we didn't talk about these problems. We didn't talk about the reason why I went to this psychiatrist at all. We talked a little bit about the weather, about my transition (which isn't the reason I came to her), about appointments with other doctors and how I was feeling at the moment. That was it, some kind of shallow surface-scratching small-talk to beat the time, nothing else. We didn't address my depression, my social anxiety, my past, the medication I need - none of that. But these are the reasons why I came to her in the first place. And sometimes we would have really awkward moments of silence. Like, we would just sit there, for minutes, in silence and just... do nothing. She literally had her eyes closed and almost fell asleep. This is a psychiatrist with a license. Just think about this for a moment. I was so angry because she literally wasted my time with that nonsense. What's the point of this? They have clearly no clue what they're doing and it's a waste of time.
The posts in this thread of people all over the world with different backgrounds explaining their negative experience prove that this is a serious global issue that needs to be addressed. So why isn't the media talking about this, instead of coming at this forum from all sides and trying to tear it down. You want to fix peoples life? Fix the system. It's as simple as that.
