Zyntkalla
Welcome to hell on Earth
- Aug 28, 2020
- 216
I really don't want to end my life many because I do have some goals that I want to try to complete even though it is a high probability it can't happen. I rather try & fail then not try at all. Even though it will cause sirius, emotional pain if I don't get it. I have accept that it will probably not happen that way but it definitely doesn't make it any easier to accept.
I have had epilepsy it started around 12 or 13. I did end up having surgery around 18 to fix it but it ended up coming back around 27 again. And I started to think about how it made me feel & I came to the conclusion that I cannot handle this again. And I started to regret not end my life around 6 when I found out that I had an issue with one of my eyes that just took everything I had left of wanting to try anything in life or put any effort into anything. I already had issues before with mainly in school. I wished my mom didn't have me because of all of this even though I didn't know who she is & I don't really care either.
And I really don't care of I heart my family. I was never really that close to them anyway. I am kinda happy if I heart them if I probably will end my life by the way it is going for me. One of the main reason for feel this way is because thay treat me different with what I go through and I just want to be left alone when I got through this stuff & everyone does the same & I just want to be left alone & stop treating me like I am fragile & always needing help after words. I almost was kicked out of my place because of it & I was kicked out of work because of it also.
I have had epilepsy it started around 12 or 13. I did end up having surgery around 18 to fix it but it ended up coming back around 27 again. And I started to think about how it made me feel & I came to the conclusion that I cannot handle this again. And I started to regret not end my life around 6 when I found out that I had an issue with one of my eyes that just took everything I had left of wanting to try anything in life or put any effort into anything. I already had issues before with mainly in school. I wished my mom didn't have me because of all of this even though I didn't know who she is & I don't really care either.
And I really don't care of I heart my family. I was never really that close to them anyway. I am kinda happy if I heart them if I probably will end my life by the way it is going for me. One of the main reason for feel this way is because thay treat me different with what I go through and I just want to be left alone when I got through this stuff & everyone does the same & I just want to be left alone & stop treating me like I am fragile & always needing help after words. I almost was kicked out of my place because of it & I was kicked out of work because of it also.
