The only thing that keeps me alive is media

[deadtrash666]

At this point the only thing that keeps me from committing is just being able to indulge myself in my favorite media. I know that's sad. I'm so depressed this year. Probably the roughest year I've had since 2020. I wanna die, but literally video games and reading is the only thing keeping me alive atp. I have to see the end publication of berserk, I have to finish all my favorite video games, I have to watch a ton of movies and read a ton of books. Also the thought of never getting to hear music again, is very depressing. It's sad that something so small is keeping me alive. I wanna write a book myself too. And create music. It's sad that THATS what keeps me alive. Not my friends, not my family, not my boyfriend. My own interests. I feel selfish.

 

[dumbnhappy]

Thats what they're made for to a certain degree

 

[getoutgirl]

Honestly same. I feel like each piece of media can't save you alone. They are like little chucks of wood floating there at the shipwreck. You can hold on to one for a while until it gets slippery, then maybe jump to another or drown a while in dark waters. Some have kept me going just long enough, so I'm thankful for all art. Wish the people in my life, my own self and the prospect of a happy future could do the same, but sometimes its just a shitty videogame keeping you afloat, and that's mighty fine. So dread the day that stops working, and please keep enjoying them as much as you can <3

 

[tapetum_lucidum]

I relate completely. One of the few things keeping me here is my desire to see the ending of deltarune lol

 

[qwert3948]

one of the things that keep me alive is the want to do my own art too. i wanted to write a manga, but whenever i actually come to it i remember i need to know so much more before i'll be able to.

it's a weird feeling. it's kind of bitter, and sometimes i feel bound to live instead of actually wanting to live for it.

 

[deadtrash666]

one of the things that keep me alive is the want to do my own art too. i wanted to write a manga, but whenever i actually come to it i remember i need to know so much more before i'll be able to.

it's a weird feeling. it's kind of bitter, and sometimes i feel bound to live instead of actually wanting to live for it.

The last sentence is the realest shit I've ever heard.

 

[shampoo sniffer]

I'm the same. I'm addicted to video games, specifically RPGs. They're the ultimate form of escapism for me. My real life sucks. Why the heck would I want to spend time there?

 

[Wolf Girl]

"How many times have people used a pen or paintbrush because they couldn't pull the trigger?" -Virginia Woolf

Stay long enough to write your book.

 

[deadtrash666]

"How many times have people used a pen or paintbrush because they couldn't pull the trigger?" -Virginia Woolf

Stay long enough to write your book.

Thank you :) It's been in the making for like 2 years the story has become so big it'll have to span across at least 4 and I've been world building lore for the lands and the people, creating a map, all kinds of nerd shit. It'll be a medieval dark fantasy, I'm really inspired by Warhammer and berserk.