NSFW masturbation is my only coping mechanism

[meowpuppy]

it literally just is.. there's nothing else. maybe reading, if you're being charitable, but i don't have anything to read right now. i don't have any other ways to cope other than jerking off. it's.. okay, i guess. it's free, it's easy, it can be done in lots of situations, it keeps me happy for like a solid 30 minutes to an hour and a half, which is basically unheard of in my life.. it's become so bad i'm planning my whole happiness around it, for the most part. whenever i feel sad, i immediately think back to the last time i masturbated, and if it was more than a few hours ago, then i get ready to masturbate again. the problem, the biggest out of the many, i suppose, is that it does nothing to help my anxiety, and if anything, only makes my anxiety worse, because i have to worry about finding good material, getting comfy, making sure i'm not gonna get interrupted..

 

[webb&flow]

an odd thing about it is how it can even suppress the drive to eat food as well

make sure you're eating enough!! <3

have you tried doing it without porn? it can be difficult at first but long-term it makes it easier without having an external aid

the best thing possible is to only masturbate when desire is present, and then after you've done it, to take that energy and pour it into something else. reading, doing something else with your hands, walking, making something, scribbling random words onto paper, anything for the brain's circuits and juices to flow for outside of sexuality <3.

i think masturbation it just…… i think it can be positive for the body and brain if done here and there but it just…… i feel masturbation has a high metabolic cost.

whenever i feel sad, i immediately think back to the last time i masturbated, and if it was more than a few hours ago, then i get ready to masturbate again.

I have this theory; that whenever we enjoy something (whenever we go from feeling dissatisfied to satisfied as a result of doing something), then our brain remembers that, and it reminds us of that thing whenever we feel dissatisfied again.

You note that you like to read books as well. What are some other activities you run to when you feel sad? ♥ I think the more of those activities we have, the more variety you have in that domain, then the less restricted and/or compelled you will feel to masturbate <3.

I am wishing you well <3. may there be harmony and soothingness for the periods of emptiness and internal vacuums felt