Any good coping method, SH ?

[sleepytime5]

I am SO SO tired of not being able to cope, I can't use any fucking substance without the repercussions of it being 100 times worse, my brain chemistry is sensitive as shit. 1 sip of alcohol, enjoy your 1 week of severe depression and insomnia. Energy drinks/ Caffeine - nothingburger, Xanax - immunity in 3 days crippling withdrawal later, food - becoming fat, starving - insomnia and headaches, stimulants - enjoy feeling like shit 3 hours later, smoking - insomnia fucking again.
Does SH work for you guys, I tried it and it helped with physical anxiety, but I was never able to cut cause I have absolutely 0 privacy 🫩. I mostly just resorted to heavily punching and slapping myself. Should I risk getting caught or nah. Also does it at one point become useless like Xanax or substances

 

[hopelesscore]

do you have a hobby or something else you like to do? if so you could try coping with that, even if just for a while. if your hobby is skill based (like drawing or skateboarding), you could even get better at it. i personally cut and smoke cigarettes heavily to cope, so i can't really give the best advice. but for me constantly hanging out or just going out alone helps too, if you're into socializing.

as for cutting, i get not having any privacy, i didn't have any for a while too. punching and slapping yourself still counts as sh, and if it makes your life more bearable maybe you could stick to that? i don't know about your situation so i can't speak too much on it, but i think it's better that you don't risk getting caught (unless you're prepared for the consequences). but if you think sh and substances eventually become useless than my advice goes back to the first one: look for new hobbies and hone your skills there.