The only reason I'm still here is because the method I want to use is pretty hard to access

[mechanician]

I really just want to go out peacefully and quietly in my sleep, but in wanting that I continue to keep myself trapped in a life I hate. Does anyone else feel this way?

 

[bruised_reed]

Yes absolutely. I have no money to obtain the methods. I was set on fentanyl but I can't find any as I'm not a drug user and I don't even know where to start looking. SN is going to take too long to get here and I don't know where to find it in stores.

 

[daruino]

I feel the same

 

[StoneCactus]

If I could get a gun or nitrogen, had a place to use CO, or figure out the SN riddles I'd be dead already.

 

[knowledgeseeking]

I really just want to go out peacefully and quietly in my sleep, but in wanting that I continue to keep myself trapped in a life I hate. Does anyone else feel this way?

This is exactly why I'm still here. It feels like all the methods have downsides and I just want to die peacefully in my sleep.

At this point I have three methods that will work but they all have aspects I don't like.

 

[egyptian_baddie]

At this point I have three methods that will work but they all have aspects I don't like.

same , I have 2 different methods however I am scared any of them fails and I get humiliated again plus can't really afford either methods

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand and I always suffer so much from being trapped in this torturous, cruel existence that just causes all this terrible suffering, all I want is peace from the torture of existing.

I see so much terrible cruelty in how I cannot just access the option to cease existing peacefully with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead, it's just so horrible to me how we exist in this anti-suicide world where humans make it into a crime to cease existing peacefully.

All I want is the peace of non-existence, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from the torture, cruelty and suffering of existing, existence will always be the most terrible mistake to me and I find it horrific how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the agony of old age with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I just want to erase this existence.