Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
and in a weird revision #4 of this thing now...
seriously this is starting to irritate me now.
seriously this is starting to irritate me now.
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thanks for the reminder. Should probably take advantage of my energy level today to work on letters today. hopefully they're done by tonight.
how far along are you with yuors?
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
only 2.... not even 1.... it went from 1 page... to 2... to now 4... and almost 1500 words.
mine are short and sweet and to the point, but im guessing the circumstances are different. on the other hand, i have about 18 (individual recipients) written and i juts realized i should probably add 3 more.....
do yuo think they'll feel better hearing the whole story, or is it more of a thing for you?
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Best friend is longest... mother won't be probably.
mine are short and sweet and to the point, but im guessing the circumstances are different. on the other hand, i have about 18 (individual recipients) written and i juts realized i should probably add 3 more.....
do yuo think they'll feel better hearing the whole story, or is it more of a thing for you?
with him I have a quick paragraph that summarizes everything that basically tells him 'not your fault, couldn't stop me, i valued you' because well... he has a 'i can save people! I can spot signs! why do people leave me?' issues
he still thinks he could've saved our friend if he could've talked to her the night she killed herself.
I'm making sure he knows he couldn't me, as in even if I called him after, given where he is, and the time it'd take him to reach people, given everything, it'd be too late (ok, white lie, or flip of coin, but he doesn't need to know that)
reasons? barely, a topic. just things to help him like a conversation.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Wow! You guys are both putting effort in. I wrote one letter- I think it's two whole pages and part of another one on legal size paper. That was just a general note listing all my reasons and so on. And then I wrote one individual letter to my SIL just trying to explain to her that there was nothing she could've done, but most of it is practical stuff like what I want done with this or that, etc. That's really all I wrote. Then I wrote out a list of contact information for various utilities and stuff that they might have to turn off, and then I wrote some warning signs to put on the bedroom door warning to call emergency instead of coming in unless they want to see my dead body. Then one more just explaining that the cups on my bedside table contain poison and no one should drink from them. And I'll probably try to use paper or Styrofoam cups so that I can write "POISON- DO NOT DRINK" on each cup. That's pretty much all I did.
mine are short and sweet and to the point, but im guessing the circumstances are different. on the other hand, i have about 18 (individual recipients) written and i juts realized i should probably add 3 more.....
do yuo think they'll feel better hearing the whole story, or is it more of a thing for you?
BooGirl
Warlock
- Jan 10, 2020
- 754
With the plus of being ultra clean!I shower like 4 times a day. It's the only place I can cry
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Well, yeah technically there'd be ones for EMS for doors, things for other stuff, ones for monitor/computer/phone like sticky notes... but I didn't count them as they're simple one-off things ;)
and they're more day-of
Plus that one's already done--it's in my "password file" that contains all of my passwords, pins, everything. Actually my best friend knows if I give that to him.... expect a letter to follow, and don't bother calling EMS
I mean, that all sounds pretty damn reasonable to me :)
And now youre already done, while Carina and I are still trying to be John Milton!
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
ok really need to get to bed otherwise I may oversleep, and I need to get gas tomorrow morning
night all!
night all!
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
This is how extra im getting with my letters:
I have prepared one for my ex partner finally (i wasn't going to write her) to be sent TEN YEARS from now. I am going to do prescheduled gmail, but also give a copy to one of my closest and most reliable friends. And i'm not gonna tell him to send it, i'm just going to ask him to consider sending it ten years from now.
I just couldn't get out the right words to make her feel better immediately after the situation. I figure time heals all, so if i just wait and let her know, yes i did go peacefully and all is good with you and me, etc., then she will be able to appreciate it.
God i hope i'm right.
I have prepared one for my ex partner finally (i wasn't going to write her) to be sent TEN YEARS from now. I am going to do prescheduled gmail, but also give a copy to one of my closest and most reliable friends. And i'm not gonna tell him to send it, i'm just going to ask him to consider sending it ten years from now.
I just couldn't get out the right words to make her feel better immediately after the situation. I figure time heals all, so if i just wait and let her know, yes i did go peacefully and all is good with you and me, etc., then she will be able to appreciate it.
God i hope i'm right.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
I'm glad you think so. I hope she does, too.
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Done my letters. MIC DROP!
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Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
MysticPerception
I'm back and I'll still smile for you
- Dec 31, 2019
- 1,252
It feels wrong to not say goodnight here so I have stopped by to do just that lol. Goodnight everyone who is still awake.
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
CyanideSoup
Memento mori
- Oct 1, 2019
- 463
Good morning all, hope you are all okay. I woke up this morning to a call from the social worker and turns out my therapist disclosed private information to her without telling me first and I was grilled about it all. I feel really bad about it and I don't think I can trust my therapist anymore so Ive cancelled my future appointments with him.
Boiler update: still broken and still freezing but the landlord is going to give us some portable heaters today (what a lovely birthday present). They're hoping the boiler will be fixed by the end of next week.
Time to stuff my face with birthday cake and celebrate being another year closer to death
Boiler update: still broken and still freezing but the landlord is going to give us some portable heaters today (what a lovely birthday present). They're hoping the boiler will be fixed by the end of next week.
Time to stuff my face with birthday cake and celebrate being another year closer to death
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
Good morning all, hope you are all okay. I woke up this morning to a call from the social worker and turns out my therapist disclosed private information to her without telling me first and I was grilled about it all. I feel really bad about it and I don't think I can trust my therapist anymore so Ive cancelled my future appointments with him.
Boiler update: still broken and still freezing but the landlord is going to give us some portable heaters today (what a lovely birthday present). They're hoping the boiler will be fixed by the end of next week.
Time to stuff my face with birthday cake and celebrate being another year closer to death
Good morning and Happy Birthday to you!!! I sincerely hope they're able to get you some much needed heat soon!
cosmicpixiedust
Pixie
- Jun 5, 2019
- 972
Good morning all, hope you are all okay. I woke up this morning to a call from the social worker and turns out my therapist disclosed private information to her without telling me first and I was grilled about it all. I feel really bad about it and I don't think I can trust my therapist anymore so Ive cancelled my future appointments with him.
Boiler update: still broken and still freezing but the landlord is going to give us some portable heaters today (what a lovely birthday present). They're hoping the boiler will be fixed by the end of next week.
Time to stuff my face with birthday cake and celebrate being another year closer to death
Happy birthday and good morning!
It's definitely best you stopped seeing him. Him disclosing information of any kind to anyone is very bad practice on his part. =|
Your landlord seems like a pretty nice guy. Yay, heaters! I hope it gets fixed soon.
Soulless_Angel
existence is futile
- Jul 10, 2019
- 2,225
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Day 3 no sleep. Going back to bed.
Day 3 insomnia
Shower and brush teeth
Get dressed in real clothes
Groceries- put away groceries and throw away bags
Clean cat dishes and box
Real job work
Day 3 insomnia
Shower and brush teeth
Get dressed in real clothes
Groceries- put away groceries and throw away bags
Clean cat dishes and box
Real job work
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Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Happy birthday!Good morning all, hope you are all okay. I woke up this morning to a call from the social worker and turns out my therapist disclosed private information to her without telling me first and I was grilled about it all. I feel really bad about it and I don't think I can trust my therapist anymore so Ive cancelled my future appointments with him.
Boiler update: still broken and still freezing but the landlord is going to give us some portable heaters today (what a lovely birthday present). They're hoping the boiler will be fixed by the end of next week.
Time to stuff my face with birthday cake and celebrate being another year closer to death
...hope the heaters at least work a bit but they should really get the heater going.
Sorry about the therapist
Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
I'm up. Time to get dressed and head to group. I did nothing productive, but sleep last afternoon.
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Take your meds
Shower, brushed teeth and vinegar drank.
In bed. Going to get real clothes on today.
just put on real clothes and went back to bed.
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Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
I'm up, at work, already issues.
I think my mood is changing.... I was like "why are all the cars going so slow?!?" I was having fun and realizing it was cool like all the world was going so slow..... I was driving almost 100mph in a 50. I slowed down only because my turn was ahead.... there was an unmarked cop in front of me... and I didn't care.
I think my mood is changing.... I was like "why are all the cars going so slow?!?" I was having fun and realizing it was cool like all the world was going so slow..... I was driving almost 100mph in a 50. I slowed down only because my turn was ahead.... there was an unmarked cop in front of me... and I didn't care.
