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Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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and in a weird revision #4 of this thing now...

seriously this is starting to irritate me now.
 
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Backwood_tilt

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Dec 27, 2019
889
and in a weird revision #4 of this thing now...

seriously this is starting to irritate me now.

thanks for the reminder. Should probably take advantage of my energy level today to work on letters today. hopefully they're done by tonight.

how far along are you with yuors?
 
Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
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thanks for the reminder. Should probably take advantage of my energy level today to work on letters today. hopefully they're done by tonight.

how far along are you with yuors?
only 2.... not even 1.... it went from 1 page... to 2... to now 4... and almost 1500 words.
 
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Backwood_tilt

UnEnlightened
Dec 27, 2019
889
only 2.... not even 1.... it went from 1 page... to 2... to now 4... and almost 1500 words.

:pfff:

mine are short and sweet and to the point, but im guessing the circumstances are different. on the other hand, i have about 18 (individual recipients) written and i juts realized i should probably add 3 more.....

do yuo think they'll feel better hearing the whole story, or is it more of a thing for you?
 
Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
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:pfff:

mine are short and sweet and to the point, but im guessing the circumstances are different. on the other hand, i have about 18 (individual recipients) written and i juts realized i should probably add 3 more.....

do yuo think they'll feel better hearing the whole story, or is it more of a thing for you?
Best friend is longest... mother won't be probably.
with him I have a quick paragraph that summarizes everything that basically tells him 'not your fault, couldn't stop me, i valued you' because well... he has a 'i can save people! I can spot signs! why do people leave me?' issues

he still thinks he could've saved our friend if he could've talked to her the night she killed herself.

I'm making sure he knows he couldn't me, as in even if I called him after, given where he is, and the time it'd take him to reach people, given everything, it'd be too late (ok, white lie, or flip of coin, but he doesn't need to know that)

reasons? barely, a topic. just things to help him like a conversation.
 
BlueWidow

BlueWidow

Visionary
Oct 6, 2019
2,179
only 2.... not even 1.... it went from 1 page... to 2... to now 4... and almost 1500 words.
:pfff:

mine are short and sweet and to the point, but im guessing the circumstances are different. on the other hand, i have about 18 (individual recipients) written and i juts realized i should probably add 3 more.....

do yuo think they'll feel better hearing the whole story, or is it more of a thing for you?
Wow! You guys are both putting effort in. I wrote one letter- I think it's two whole pages and part of another one on legal size paper. That was just a general note listing all my reasons and so on. And then I wrote one individual letter to my SIL just trying to explain to her that there was nothing she could've done, but most of it is practical stuff like what I want done with this or that, etc. That's really all I wrote. Then I wrote out a list of contact information for various utilities and stuff that they might have to turn off, and then I wrote some warning signs to put on the bedroom door warning to call emergency instead of coming in unless they want to see my dead body. Then one more just explaining that the cups on my bedside table contain poison and no one should drink from them. And I'll probably try to use paper or Styrofoam cups so that I can write "POISON- DO NOT DRINK" on each cup. That's pretty much all I did.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
Moo. Insomnia. Back to bed.
 
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Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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Wow! You guys are both putting effort in. I wrote one letter- I think it's two whole pages and part of another one on legal size paper. That was just a general note listing all my reasons and so on. And then I wrote one individual letter to my SIL just trying to explain to her that there was nothing she could've done, but most of it is practical stuff like what I want done with this or that, etc. That's really all I wrote. Then I wrote out a list of contact information for various utilities and stuff that they might have to turn off, and then I wrote some warning signs to put on the bedroom door warning to call emergency instead of coming in unless they want to see my dead body. Then one more just explaining that the cups on my bedside table contain poison and no one should drink from them. And I'll probably try to use paper or Styrofoam cups so that I can write "POISON- DO NOT DRINK" on each cup. That's pretty much all I did.
Well, yeah technically there'd be ones for EMS for doors, things for other stuff, ones for monitor/computer/phone like sticky notes... but I didn't count them as they're simple one-off things ;)

and they're more day-of

Plus that one's already done--it's in my "password file" that contains all of my passwords, pins, everything. Actually my best friend knows if I give that to him.... expect a letter to follow, and don't bother calling EMS
 
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Backwood_tilt

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Dec 27, 2019
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Wow! You guys are both putting effort in. I wrote one letter- I think it's two whole pages and part of another one on legal size paper. That was just a general note listing all my reasons and so on. And then I wrote one individual letter to my SIL just trying to explain to her that there was nothing she could've done, but most of it is practical stuff like what I want done with this or that, etc. That's really all I wrote. Then I wrote out a list of contact information for various utilities and stuff that they might have to turn off, and then I wrote some warning signs to put on the bedroom door warning to call emergency instead of coming in unless they want to see my dead body. Then one more just explaining that the cups on my bedside table contain poison and no one should drink from them. And I'll probably try to use paper or Styrofoam cups so that I can write "POISON- DO NOT DRINK" on each cup. That's pretty much all I did.

I mean, that all sounds pretty damn reasonable to me :)

And now youre already done, while Carina and I are still trying to be John Milton!
 
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Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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ok really need to get to bed otherwise I may oversleep, and I need to get gas tomorrow morning

night all!
 
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Backwood_tilt

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Dec 27, 2019
889
This is how extra im getting with my letters:

I have prepared one for my ex partner finally (i wasn't going to write her) to be sent TEN YEARS from now. I am going to do prescheduled gmail, but also give a copy to one of my closest and most reliable friends. And i'm not gonna tell him to send it, i'm just going to ask him to consider sending it ten years from now.

I just couldn't get out the right words to make her feel better immediately after the situation. I figure time heals all, so if i just wait and let her know, yes i did go peacefully and all is good with you and me, etc., then she will be able to appreciate it.

God i hope i'm right.
 
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BlueWidow

BlueWidow

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Oct 6, 2019
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This is how extra im getting with my letters:

I have prepared one for my ex partner finally (i wasn't going to write her) to be sent TEN YEARS from now. I am going to do prescheduled gmail, but also give a copy to one of my closest and most reliable friends. And i'm not gonna tell him to send it, i'm just going to ask him to consider sending it ten years from now.

I just couldn't get out the right words to make her feel better immediately after the situation. I figure time heals all, so if i just wait and let her know, yes i did go peacefully and all is good with you and me, etc., then she will be able to appreciate it.

God i hope i'm right.
That's a good idea.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Took a 4 hour nap. Gonna head to bed now. Night y'all
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
Early night for everyone it would seem.
 
MysticPerception

MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
1,252
It feels wrong to not say goodnight here so I have stopped by to do just that lol. Goodnight everyone who is still awake.
 
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CyanideSoup

CyanideSoup

Memento mori
Oct 1, 2019
463
Good morning all, hope you are all okay. I woke up this morning to a call from the social worker and turns out my therapist disclosed private information to her without telling me first and I was grilled about it all. I feel really bad about it and I don't think I can trust my therapist anymore so Ive cancelled my future appointments with him.

Boiler update: still broken and still freezing but the landlord is going to give us some portable heaters today (what a lovely birthday present). They're hoping the boiler will be fixed by the end of next week.

Time to stuff my face with birthday cake and celebrate being another year closer to death :happy:
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
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Good morning all, hope you are all okay. I woke up this morning to a call from the social worker and turns out my therapist disclosed private information to her without telling me first and I was grilled about it all. I feel really bad about it and I don't think I can trust my therapist anymore so Ive cancelled my future appointments with him.

Boiler update: still broken and still freezing but the landlord is going to give us some portable heaters today (what a lovely birthday present). They're hoping the boiler will be fixed by the end of next week.

Time to stuff my face with birthday cake and celebrate being another year closer to death :happy:

Good morning and Happy Birthday to you!!! I sincerely hope they're able to get you some much needed heat soon!
 
cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

Pixie
Jun 5, 2019
972
Good morning all, hope you are all okay. I woke up this morning to a call from the social worker and turns out my therapist disclosed private information to her without telling me first and I was grilled about it all. I feel really bad about it and I don't think I can trust my therapist anymore so Ive cancelled my future appointments with him.

Boiler update: still broken and still freezing but the landlord is going to give us some portable heaters today (what a lovely birthday present). They're hoping the boiler will be fixed by the end of next week.

Time to stuff my face with birthday cake and celebrate being another year closer to death :happy:

Happy birthday and good morning!
It's definitely best you stopped seeing him. Him disclosing information of any kind to anyone is very bad practice on his part. =|
Your landlord seems like a pretty nice guy. Yay, heaters! I hope it gets fixed soon.
 
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Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

existence is futile
Jul 10, 2019
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Happy birthday @L0ne1ygh0st
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
Day 3 no sleep. Going back to bed.
Day 3 insomnia

Shower and brush teeth
Get dressed in real clothes
Groceries- put away groceries and throw away bags
Clean cat dishes and box
Real job work
 
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
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Good morning all, hope you are all okay. I woke up this morning to a call from the social worker and turns out my therapist disclosed private information to her without telling me first and I was grilled about it all. I feel really bad about it and I don't think I can trust my therapist anymore so Ive cancelled my future appointments with him.

Boiler update: still broken and still freezing but the landlord is going to give us some portable heaters today (what a lovely birthday present). They're hoping the boiler will be fixed by the end of next week.

Time to stuff my face with birthday cake and celebrate being another year closer to death :happy:
Happy birthday!

...hope the heaters at least work a bit but they should really get the heater going.

Sorry about the therapist
 
Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
I'm up. Time to get dressed and head to group. I did nothing productive, but sleep last afternoon.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I'm up. Time to get dressed and head to group. I did nothing productive, but sleep last afternoon.
Take your meds
Shower, brushed teeth and vinegar drank.
In bed. Going to get real clothes on today.
just put on real clothes and went back to bed.
 
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Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
4,005
I'm up, at work, already issues.

I think my mood is changing.... I was like "why are all the cars going so slow?!?" I was having fun and realizing it was cool like all the world was going so slow..... I was driving almost 100mph in a 50. I slowed down only because my turn was ahead.... there was an unmarked cop in front of me... and I didn't care.
 
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