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BlueWidow

BlueWidow

Visionary
Oct 6, 2019
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Continuing to suffer on this blue green earth of ours. Then again if there is suffering in some sort of afterlife I guess that definition falls apart. My heart is beating, I think that's good enough? I wish it wasn't though. If I was still alive and it wasn't does that make me a vampire? That would be nice. I could just throw myself into the sun and be done with it. Fastest method around.
I only ask because since my husband died, I don't think I've been alive, I think I've just been existing. I think I died the day he died and I've just been existing since then, but someone hasn't bothered to tell my lungs, my heart, and my brain that I'm dead yet. I'm hoping the SN can send the message loud and clear to them. Time to pack it up kids! The show's over!
 
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Backwood_tilt

UnEnlightened
Dec 27, 2019
889
I could just throw myself into the sun and be done with it. Fastest method around.

It sounds super painful, and you wouldn't be able to breathe because you're in space :(
 
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MysticPerception

MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
1,252
I only ask because since my husband died, I don't think I've been alive, I think I've just been existing. I think I died the day he died and I've just been existing since then, but someone hasn't bothered to tell my lungs, my heart, and my brain that I'm dead yet. I'm hoping the SN can send the message loud and clear to them. Time to pack it up kids! The show's over!
Unfortunately I think very rationally overall so in my eyes you are still alive. Being alive is pure suffering even if your situation is good in my opinion. Eating, being forced to sleep or not being able to sleep, drinking fluids to keep hydrated, buying things to sustain yourself, working, bills, social obligations ect. All of it is just more suffering to me so yeah being alive sucks period lol.
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
It sounds super painful, and you wouldn't be able to breathe because you're in space :(
Vampires don't breathe and they don't need to be this close to the sun.
Though depending on your canon, you might just glimmer instead lol.
 
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MysticPerception

MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
1,252
It sounds super painful, and you wouldn't be able to breathe because you're in space :(
That is not what I meant but I admit that would be really painful for like 10 seconds before I die horribly.
Vampires don't breathe and they don't need to be this close to the sun.
Though depending on your canon, you might just glimmer instead lol.
If I start to glimmer please stake me. That will be my new preferred method. I need a stat dose of stake in my heart 45 minutes before I realize I'm glimmering or sparkling please.
 
BlueWidow

BlueWidow

Visionary
Oct 6, 2019
2,179
Unfortunately I think very rationally overall so in my eyes you are still alive. Being alive is pure suffering even if your situation is good in my opinion. Eating, being forced to sleep or not being able to sleep, drinking fluids to keep hydrated, buying things to sustain yourself, working, bills, social obligations ect. All of it is just more suffering to me so yeah being alive sucks period lol.
I think of those things that you describe as just existing, especially if they're just done on auto pilot without any feeling or desire to be here. When I think of being alive, I think of actually having a real life and being happy and so forth, like I was with my husband. Then, I was alive. Not that I wasn't suffering then too, but the difference is, I didn't mind the suffering as much because he was there with me and he gave me a reason to keep going. Now my reason to keep going is gone so I'm just existing, just going through the motions, but not really wanting to be here or enjoying anything anymore.
But I know each person sees it differently and feels it differently.
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
Is it general knowledge that vampires can fly to the sun? I am ignorant about such things.
It is general knowledge that they don't need to :)
Actually, hitting the sun is pretty hard. There was a neat video about it:
 
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MysticPerception

MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
1,252
I think of those things that you describe as just existing, especially if they're just done on auto pilot without any feeling or desire to be here. When I think of being alive, I think of actually having a real life and being happy and so forth, like I was with my husband. Then, I was alive. Not that I wasn't suffering then too, but the difference is, I didn't mind the suffering as much because he was there with me and he gave me a reason to keep going. Now my reason to keep going is gone so I'm just existing, just going through the motions, but not really wanting to be here or enjoying anything anymore.
But I know each person sees it differently and feels it differently.
Different perspectives on the matter but yeah if you were that happy I have to agree with you on that.
It is general knowledge that they don't need to :)
Actually, hitting the sun is pretty hard. There was a neat video about it:

I am too lazy to watch that but wouldn't you just burn up long before getting close to it? I mean that's like the standard answer in my brain anyway.
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
I am too lazy to watch that but wouldn't you just burn up long before getting close to it?
Well the problem is that you'd be going sideways and might just get stuck orbiting around sun instead, forever and ever.
 
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Backwood_tilt

UnEnlightened
Dec 27, 2019
889
with my husband. Then, I was alive. Not that I wasn't suffering then too, but the difference is, I didn't mind the suffering as much because he was there with me and he gave me a reason to keep going. Now my reason to keep going is gone so I'm just existing, just going through the motions, but not really wanting to be here or enjoying anything anymore.

:heart:

how i feel about my partner of 3 yrs. can't imagine how much hurt you've felt.
 
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BlueWidow

BlueWidow

Visionary
Oct 6, 2019
2,179
sanctioned suicide in the year 2135: "it's hard but if you get the right boosters and flight path you'll obliterate yourself upon impact"
:pfff: :pfff::pfff: Just imagine how large our cult will be by then! They'll have statues of Stan all over the place, only nobody knows what it looks like except for @Jean4, I think. They'd have to figure out a statue or a logo of some kind to represent the cult.
Of course, they could use The Reaper, but most of the heavy metal bands have already claimed him. He's on every Blue Öyster Cult T-shirt that I own, which is a few. LOL!
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
I would not like to be orbiting the sun forever and ever! That would be horrible!
Exactly! But as a human, you'd run out of oxygen eventually. Or you can always depressurize your craft.

sanctioned suicide in the year 2135: "it's hard but if you get the right boosters and flight path you'll obliterate yourself upon impact"
"Remember, the stat dose of thrust is 534.1 kN per kilogram of mass"
I guess we'll be able to pretend that we're beginner rocket science forum instead of same day auto parts (which doesn't work for me, as I don't have a car even)
 
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MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
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Exactly! But as a human, you'd run out of oxygen eventually. Or you can always depressurize your craft.


"Remember, the stat dose of thrust is 534.1 kN per kilogram of mass"
I guess we'll be able to pretend that we're beginner rocket science forum instead of same day auto parts (which doesn't work for me, as I don't have a car even)
IT'S NOT ROCKET SCIENCE!
Beginner's Rocket Science Board
Okay I am going to sleep because I really need to. Have a nice day everyone. Some of you need to go to sleep as well so good luck with that.
 
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BlueWidow

BlueWidow

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Oct 6, 2019
2,179
IT'S NOT ROCKET SCIENCE!
Beginner's Rocket Science Board
Okay I am going to sleep because I really need to. Have a nice day everyone. Some of you need to go to sleep as well so good luck with that.
Good night! Sleep well!
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
4 am. I can't see me not napping after the nurse leaves. Bad night. Trying to go to sleep
 
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Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

existence is futile
Jul 10, 2019
2,225
Morning guy's, I'm a bit of a lurker at mo,
Hows peep's doing?
 
cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

Pixie
Jun 5, 2019
972
@Soulless_Angel I'm tired, about 30 minutes away from finally being home from work. How are you doing?
 
Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

existence is futile
Jul 10, 2019
2,225
@Soulless_Angel I'm tired, about 30 minutes away from finally being home from work. How are you doing?

Hope that 30 mins doesn't drag for you.
Im meh just meh!!! sick of feeling trapped more then anything
 
Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
4,005
I'm awake. Feel like I could throw up for some reason....and I want even drinking last night!

Days sucked so far though hands are shaking so much its hard to hold the phone or even try to type so many edits so it was readable

So many had sleeping issues :( that's so sad.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
What a horrible night. I'll blame SinisterKid. He is my go to when anything goes wrong.

On a different note. They are still covering when I woke up friggen Kobe Bryant.

Strange. only two commentators mentioned the fact that he raped a 19 year old front desk clerk at a hotel he stayed at. Would love to hear how his rape victim is feeling today.

Yup. Jean is cranky from not sleeping lol.
 
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CynicalHopelessness

CynicalHopelessness

Messenger of Silence
Jan 9, 2020
940
I'm getting so sleepy after doing a boring bit of work... and my day is over soon, and I don't even feel like doing anything at all after it's finished. Guess another powerless nap is coming for me.
 
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cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

Pixie
Jun 5, 2019
972
I'm getting so sleepy after doing a boring bit of work... and my day is over soon, and I don't even feel like doing anything at all after it's finished. Guess another powerless nap is coming for me.

Those darn powerless naps, they sneak up on you!
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
My usual nurse is male. His name is Ozzy. Yes he is a nurse. Yes, he will do all the nurse things.

The agency asked if I was comfortable with a male. I don't care, but I like Ozzy.

He does none nurse things because I am stable. Not much for him to do.

I leave jars for him to open that I can't open.He changes light bulbs for me and little things I would have a man do that really isn't part of his job.

Open a jar, I let you leave early and you still get paid. I think it's a good deal lol.
 
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cosmicpixiedust

Pixie
Jun 5, 2019
972
My usual nurse is male. His name is Ozzy. Yes he is a nurse. Yes, he will do all the nurse things.

The agency asked if I was comfortable with a male. I don't care, but I like Ozzy.

He does none nurse things because I am stable. Not much for him to do.

I leave jars for him to open that I can't open.He changes light bulbs for me and little things I would have a man do that really isn't part of his job.

Open a jar, I let you leave early and you still get paid. I think it's a good deal lol.

That's a pretty sweet deal, I do say.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
I'm up and in the program. About to discuss how I feel and my incompetence
 
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