Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
I won't even though it's so early lol.
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Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
I'm so going to oversleep tomorrow... my mom just locked a cat in the room with me... meaning I'm basically in here til 10 ugh.
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Can't sleep. Going to be another bad night.
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
omg I"m trying to write letter things and a friend keeps on messaging me.... ugh.... like I can't write with ding....ding....ding....ding....ding.... omg stop.....
BooGirl
Warlock
- Jan 10, 2020
- 754
Fuck, now I'm nervous because I spent hours and hours translating and I have no clue if the channel will approve the translation.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
LegaliseIt!
Elementalist
- Nov 29, 2019
- 808
3 hours of visiting nurse? That's horrible!
Goodnight everyone!
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
very tough talking to one of my closest friends and wanting to be honest about my suicidal ideation (he's been through it himself) but not wanting to tell him i'm really planning to CTB.
I wish there wasn't this stigma. I think even if there weren't, your friends and family would still feel obligated to tell you to stick around and keep living. cause if they really love you they don't want to see you go.
Can't imagine my friends wanting to send me off proper and being willing to juts let me die. That goes against all our programming.
I wish there wasn't this stigma. I think even if there weren't, your friends and family would still feel obligated to tell you to stick around and keep living. cause if they really love you they don't want to see you go.
Can't imagine my friends wanting to send me off proper and being willing to juts let me die. That goes against all our programming.
turn off your notifications!
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
It was over discord.... and he's actually depressed at times... and wanted the link to this board actually... but 'doesn't like talking' so isn't sure if wants to make an account..... so I can't entirely ignore him.
otherwise I would.
OK bedtime.
Ok that sounded bad....he's alsoa friend and I like talking too him. It's just what I was doing so it kind of was distracting when I didn't want distractions
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i understand :) in my view though, something like notifications? you can always get back to him after you finish writing your message!
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
I don't need sleep ( I'll keep telling myself that)
My life's motto.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
I should probably adopt that motto as well.
MysticPerception
I'm back and I'll still smile for you
- Dec 31, 2019
- 1,252
Welcome to the club. Enjoy your stay and try not to land in the hospital from collapsing. Easier said than done but you can do it or more like your body will force you to do it even if you want to it to collapse sometimes. God I hate sleep as a concept.
CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
Morning here. Guess who's not dead.
Lol lack of sleep is my biggest seizure trigger so I've ended up hospitalized for lack of sleep many times.
MysticPerception
I'm back and I'll still smile for you
- Dec 31, 2019
- 1,252
Oh I know, me! Wait...how do I know I'm not a ghost though?
I'm sorry to hear that. I hadn't thought of seizures that's horrible. I've been so close to the feeling of just dropping from literally no sleep and working that I was mainly just thinking of your body moving even though you WANT it to stop and just give out. But what you deal with is way worse.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
It's just very odd for me because I go from practically blacking out to being totally unable to sleep even though I'm exhausted. That's the one thing that never changes no matter what- I am always exhausted. I like the part of the black out where I'm actually out and I suspect that's probably somewhat how death is going to be. The problem I hate is the coming back or waking up because I feel like I'm being jerked back into my body and it feels awful. It makes me feel sick. Well, I was complaining about it the other day when it happened. But I don't really like the insomnia either. It would be one thing if I could get up and actually get something done while I had insomnia. But instead, I'm awake but not awake- like where I can actually get up and do anything. Does that make sense? About all I can do is watch TV or run around this forum or go on the Internet. I don't have the energy to get out of bed and actually do something. It's just frustrating.
MysticPerception
I'm back and I'll still smile for you
- Dec 31, 2019
- 1,252
That is more along the lines of what I meant yes I get that. I used to be exhausted like that all the time and on days off I would just sit at my computer watching videos barely able to even think because I was so tired from never ending sleep deprivation.It's just very odd for me because I go from practically blacking out to being totally unable to sleep even though I'm exhausted. That's the one thing that never changes no matter what- I am always exhausted. I like the part of the black out where I'm actually out and I suspect that's probably somewhat how death is going to be. The problem I hate is the coming back or waking up because I feel like I'm being jerked back into my body and it feels awful. It makes me feel sick. Well, I was complaining about it the other day when it happened. But I don't really like the insomnia either. It would be one thing if I could get up and actually get something done while I had insomnia. But instead, I'm awake but not awake- like where I can actually get up and do anything. Does that make sense? About all I can do is watch TV or run around this forum or go on the Internet. I don't have the energy to get out of bed and actually do something. It's just frustrating.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Good morning. Welcome to Insomnia Town!
How are you doing? And glad to see you're not dead.
CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
Ghosts can't type, it's a well-known fact. Their fingers prevent the electricity passing through contact plate on keys and touchscreens.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
MysticPerception
I'm back and I'll still smile for you
- Dec 31, 2019
- 1,252
Dang it I thought for sure if I was proven a ghost that I could just fly away and go haunt somebody. Oh well science and logic wins in the end. I guess that means you and me both are alive.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Yes, I can't imagine what you must have been through and are still going through. It's almost like someone got tired of delivering all the illnesses to different people, so he just dumped them all on one person and went home early. And you were unlucky enough to be standing near the delivery truck. Or maybe it's lying under the delivery truck.
What's your definition of "alive"?
CynicalHopelessness
Messenger of Silence
- Jan 9, 2020
- 940
I often ask my mom if she was exposed to radiation or did crack when she was pregnant with me
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
I slept well last night for about four hours. Tonight I've had maybe an hour. It's 10:37 at night where I am right now. And here I am wide awake.
MysticPerception
I'm back and I'll still smile for you
- Dec 31, 2019
- 1,252
Continuing to suffer on this blue green earth of ours. Then again if there is suffering in some sort of afterlife I guess that definition falls apart. My heart is beating, I think that's good enough? I wish it wasn't though. If I was still alive and it wasn't does that make me a vampire? That would be nice. I could just throw myself into the sun and be done with it. Fastest method around.
