Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Better than the two cats and a parakeet I expected you to have ended up with lol
Better than the two cats and a parakeet I expected you to have ended up with lol
Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
My goal is to get it more than that SN megathread he hated so much lol@Jean4, Stan's thread has 700 posts now!
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Stan got angry when the same question was asked over and over again because nobody reads.
Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Awww. . . Look at that kissable snoot!
Those eyes. . . Be still my heart
You got yourself a sweetie there.
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Oreo!!!
Look at those eyes!!!! I'm in love!!!!!Awww. . . Look at that kissable snoot!
Those eyes. . . Be still my heart
You got yourself a sweetie there.
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Ahh. Yeah I almost wish there was a way that if a person asked/mentioned SN in a first post, it auto-posted a link to the main SN thread of Stan's... as it's at least concise, and answers most questions they probably asked (granted they could've asked something unrelated, but still). no one's going to read more than a few posts for an answer, but a single post they would at least be more likely to.
MysticPerception
I'm back and I'll still smile for you
- Dec 31, 2019
- 1,252
Rena is gone. My heart hurts. I actually feel it aching. It's been a while since I've felt this. I usually just get cold instead.
That is one adorable puppy. At least something good happened today. I'm wrong two good things. She finally found peace. I'm being stupid.
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Nemeshisu
Experienced
- Dec 25, 2019
- 236
Well, it's not impossible to do algorithm like this but it would be extremly difficult. I don't think anyone would like to have SS website shutdown for two weeks or so, just so we could have algorithm like this.
Squiddy
Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
- Sep 4, 2019
- 5,903
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
After every post I could follow up posting his guide. That will be my full time job and I will do nothing else.
Attention!!! @Squiddy got her puppy!!! Which means, we all just got a puppy!!!
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
After every post I could follow up posting his guide. That will be my full time job and I will do nothing else.
Looks like you're set for life then :)
Yeah, granted it'd be poteantially a check in code for new posts where text contains ' SN ' then insert post of the link to it... but who knows how complex an auto-post is with the software they have is.... and then any updates could undo it...
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Yes, I'll never be able to repay Stan for going to all the trouble that he did to write out his SN Info thread, despite everything he was most likely going through at the time.
Before his thread, I was stumbling my way through the other thread, but it's very confusing to the average person I suspect. I was trying to do it while dealing with brain fog and exhaustion, which made it impossible to comprehend or understand any of it.
I always loved the sarcastic exchanges between Stan, @BPD_LE, and others would have.
Such as, when you drink SN during a lunar eclipse on the last Wednesday of March and it's also St. Patrick's Day, can you mix the water with green alcohol, as long as it's done on the advice of a leprechaun?
I miss that sarcastic wit they all had.
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Well, at least he didn't have to deal with my cooking! He wouldn't have needed the SNYes, I'll never be able to repay Stan for going to all the trouble that he did to write out his SN Info thread, despite everything he was most likely going through at the time.
Before his thread, I was stumbling my way through the other thread, but it's very confusing to the average person I suspect. I was trying to do it while dealing with brain fog and exhaustion, which made it impossible to comprehend or understand any of it.
I always loved the sarcastic exchanges between Stan, @BPD_LE, and others would have.
Such as, when you drink SN during a lunar eclipse on the last Wednesday of March and it's also St. Patrick's Day, can you mix the water with green alcohol, as long as it's done on the advice of a leprechaun?
I miss that sarcastic wit they all had.
MysticPerception
I'm back and I'll still smile for you
- Dec 31, 2019
- 1,252
Not gonna lie I really want to cry right now but my body won't take the hint. This is annoying. Also in response to the Stan thing his guide helped me tremendously. If it wasn't for that guide I would still be bumbling around the internet unsure of what method to use.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
In a really odd way... while I found this site from a search because of a dream, that lead me to the wiki... I then came to the site and ended up finding his thread... and ironically am here now.... technically longer than id planned...
so technically I'm here longer because of his thread and everyone and @Jean4.... which is kind of odd... I mean if not for his thread, and the realationship with Jean4... she wouldn't have posted it as much... and I wouldn't have seen her name as much... everything is so linked.
so technically I'm here longer because of his thread and everyone and @Jean4.... which is kind of odd... I mean if not for his thread, and the realationship with Jean4... she wouldn't have posted it as much... and I wouldn't have seen her name as much... everything is so linked.
That thing with the St. Patricks's day sounds funny lolYes, I'll never be able to repay Stan for going to all the trouble that he did to write out his SN Info thread, despite everything he was most likely going through at the time.
Before his thread, I was stumbling my way through the other thread, but it's very confusing to the average person I suspect. I was trying to do it while dealing with brain fog and exhaustion, which made it impossible to comprehend or understand any of it.
I always loved the sarcastic exchanges between Stan, @BPD_LE, and others would have.
Such as, when you drink SN during a lunar eclipse on the last Wednesday of March and it's also St. Patrick's Day, can you mix the water with green alcohol, as long as it's done on the advice of a leprechaun?
I miss that sarcastic wit they all had.
Well, at least he didn't have to deal with my cooking! He wouldn't have needed the SN
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
It's frightening how much time I can waste on this forum, you all. I get a nice hot cuppa coffee and I sit down and go on this forum, next thing I know—three or four hours have passed and my coffee is stone cold. So I have to go heat it back up in the microwave.
I think I heated the same cup of coffee up three or four times in a row yesterday because I kept getting lost on here.
Same last night when I was trying to drink my rum. I finally had to go off of here for a while and drink a little bit because I was too focused on this site to even get drunk!
I think I heated the same cup of coffee up three or four times in a row yesterday because I kept getting lost on here.
Same last night when I was trying to drink my rum. I finally had to go off of here for a while and drink a little bit because I was too focused on this site to even get drunk!
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Everything happens for a reason. ;)In a really odd way... while I found this site from a search because of a dream, that lead me to the wiki... I then came to the site and ended up finding his thread... and ironically am here now.... technically longer than id planned...
so technically I'm here longer because of his thread and everyone and @Jean4.... which is kind of odd... I mean if not for his thread, and the realationship with Jean4... she wouldn't have posted it as much... and I wouldn't have seen her name as much... everything is so linked.
That thing with the St. Patricks's day sounds funny lol
@Squiddy ! Puppy update!! Do we have a name?
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BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
My SIL just called me from the hospital. She had surgery on January 30th, just a routine surgery. I'm still not exactly sure what it was for. All I know is, I was in the car with her last month when her doctor called and told her that as long as he was in the area, during the surgery, he would give her a chest reduction.
I think she was having a growth or something removed. She has a fairly large chest and it was causing her serious back problems. It was nice of him to volunteer to go in and help with that so she wouldn't have to go under sedation a second time to get that done.
Anyway, when I talked to her last week, she was going stir crazy being stuck in the house and being forced to let other people wait on her and do things for her. Then I got a text from her daughter last night that she was in the hospital with pneumonia. She just called me from the hospital and she sounded very weak, but she said she's doing a lot better and she expects them to release her tomorrow.
She said she's hoping to see me next week. I told her she should probably just rest and not overdo it. I live on the other side of town from her and I don't really know that she has any business driving over here after being in the hospital with not one, but two kinds of pneumonia! She said she had two different kinds of pneumonia in the bottom of her lungs. They've given her antibiotics and she said she's feeling better, but I've never heard of anyone having two kinds of pneumonia at once.
It's just so frustrating for me. I've made no secret on this forum of the fact that she is a huge pain in my ass, but she's also one of the most generous, sweet, kindest, people I've ever known in my entire life. If she would just accept that I can run my own life and I don't need or want her help because she can't help me anyway, things would be a lot easier and better. But she refuses to accept that.
It's odd because she is both one of the reasons that I feel an immediate need to ctb, but also is one of the reasons that I am delaying because I don't want to hurt her.
When she said she wanted to see me next week, this wave of panic went through me.
Part of me was thinking, "Shit! Gotta do it NOW before she starts attempting to drag me around to various doctors again!".
I've tried talking to her about it, but she just doesn't get it. She insists that I'm going to find a doctor to help me even though it's been 25 freaking years and I know there's not a doctor out there that would help me, and honestly, at this point, even if I found a doctor that would help me—it's too damn late now.
I just don't want to be here—that's the beginning & the end of it. Without my husband. . . No point to me being here. I'm just sitting here waiting to die so I can be with him again.
I'm so sick of all the back-and-forth!
I think she was having a growth or something removed. She has a fairly large chest and it was causing her serious back problems. It was nice of him to volunteer to go in and help with that so she wouldn't have to go under sedation a second time to get that done.
Anyway, when I talked to her last week, she was going stir crazy being stuck in the house and being forced to let other people wait on her and do things for her. Then I got a text from her daughter last night that she was in the hospital with pneumonia. She just called me from the hospital and she sounded very weak, but she said she's doing a lot better and she expects them to release her tomorrow.
She said she's hoping to see me next week. I told her she should probably just rest and not overdo it. I live on the other side of town from her and I don't really know that she has any business driving over here after being in the hospital with not one, but two kinds of pneumonia! She said she had two different kinds of pneumonia in the bottom of her lungs. They've given her antibiotics and she said she's feeling better, but I've never heard of anyone having two kinds of pneumonia at once.
It's just so frustrating for me. I've made no secret on this forum of the fact that she is a huge pain in my ass, but she's also one of the most generous, sweet, kindest, people I've ever known in my entire life. If she would just accept that I can run my own life and I don't need or want her help because she can't help me anyway, things would be a lot easier and better. But she refuses to accept that.
It's odd because she is both one of the reasons that I feel an immediate need to ctb, but also is one of the reasons that I am delaying because I don't want to hurt her.
When she said she wanted to see me next week, this wave of panic went through me.
Part of me was thinking, "Shit! Gotta do it NOW before she starts attempting to drag me around to various doctors again!".
I've tried talking to her about it, but she just doesn't get it. She insists that I'm going to find a doctor to help me even though it's been 25 freaking years and I know there's not a doctor out there that would help me, and honestly, at this point, even if I found a doctor that would help me—it's too damn late now.
I just don't want to be here—that's the beginning & the end of it. Without my husband. . . No point to me being here. I'm just sitting here waiting to die so I can be with him again.
I'm so sick of all the back-and-forth!
LegaliseIt!
Elementalist
- Nov 29, 2019
- 808
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
MysticPerception
I'm back and I'll still smile for you
- Dec 31, 2019
- 1,252
That's a terrible catch 22 I'm sorry you have to deal with that. I feel like my older sister would be the same way if she found out I wanted to ctb. She was visiting for a bit and I bashed my head against the wall in a terribly stressful moment and she freaked out and wanted to know why I did that and told me not to do that and talk to her if something is wrong ect. ect. She's very pushy and will pry if it means helping you so yeah. I hope your SIL gets better though at least.
Making rice because I refuse to not eat just because I'm sad. I hate when I lose my appetite but I'm going to fight it.
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BooGirl
Warlock
- Jan 10, 2020
- 750
Watching people make goodbye posts make suicide kinda more... real, y'know?
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
BooGirl
Warlock
- Jan 10, 2020
- 750
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
- 7,557
Yup.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/can-anyone-hear-frank-sinatra.27430/page-24
