The Official 2020 Everything But The Kitchen Sink Post

[Carina]

Just waking up. I marijuana'd the heck out of myself. Got some sleep, but in a total brain fog from the marijuana.

The sleep made me physically feel better. My chest has no pain, which probably meant the lack of sleep was causing my asthma attacks.

@Root how did you do with your list yesterday? @Carina and @Squiddy take your meds!

check in
@realjunes
@BlueWidow
@Azzy69
@APharmaDestroyedLife
@L0ne1ygh0st

@Sensei just because I like saying your name and being the Queen I am entitled to!

List for today
Start with coffee to clear brain fog
Shower and brush teeth
Throw away the boxes and bags that are on my floor from the groceries
Wash cat dishes and clean boxes
Real job work
Morning to @Brick In The Wall @cosmicpixiedust , @Soulless_Angel and @BabyYoda

Oh I took my meds!

Almost forgot though, but did it


Granted (and yes I know you're going to say CALL THE DOCTOR!), I may have realized that the lower dose of the welbutin (whatever) may have caused an unintentional side effect of being as useful as water... unless seeing bridges as being cool things that a car should go over because the river/ditch is so pretty... or such is normal. That's normal right?

Granted it's taken what... 5-7 days before that's been more full effect of that? maybe... can't remember, I"m totally losing track of time, and being more anti social even for me...

 

[BooGirl]

I told you so!!! Fantastic!! I'm proud of you!!!

It's not until Sunday, so I'm gonna study up so hard over Saturday!

 

[LegaliseIt!]

@Jean4
Profile pic is down because I was embarrassed after I posted "Little Apocalypse on the Prairie", my PTSD story:)

 

[CyanideSoup]

@Jean4 just checking in

 

[Carina]

@Jean4
Profile pic is down because I was embarrassed after I posted "Little Apocalypse on the Prairie", my PTSD story:)

It's a shame you were embarrassed though! No need to be here :)



Edit:
omg... I just noticed something with my username here compared to my real name....

I was so trying to avoid something that I learned from Derren Brown about people when they picked 'random names' when they picked ones based on theirs... that I actually did something else lol. Oh well. I can't believe I just now noticed it rofl.

So how's others days going?

 

[Jean4]

Stan was at it again knocking down the site.
I washed the cat dishes
Took my vinegar shot. I am starting with it again.
now onto coffee

 

[Carina]

Whoa... I did have to clear cache... and by that I mean I had to dump everything to get back in, almost had to uninstall the browser!

 

[Squiddy]

I'm up and I'll take my meds now

 

[Jean4]

I'm up and I'll take my meds now

Good! How is Kola?
Someone bump please

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

@Jean4 Wow. From my side it looks like you have taken role of a mother figure here.

 

[Carina]

@Jean4 Wow. From my side it looks like you have taken role of a mother figure here.

She has basically :D

 

[LegaliseIt!]

Today's laugh from the frozen North:
I was just listening to the radio, and the city zoo 300 kilometres _south_ of us had to move their King penguins indoors because it was too cold for them this week!
(Sissy penguins! Good thing they aren't up here in the _real_North!)
Just kidding—I'm glad that their welfare is being taken into account:)

 

[Jean4]

@Jean4 Wow. From my side it looks like you have taken role of a mother figure here.

I have been called that and also have been dubbed Queen by @Sensei lol. Stan was the true leader. I am just trying to fill his shoes the best I can. But nobody will ever be Stan.
Showered and brushed my teeth. Back in bed.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I got the job! Only 4 sessions, but I have some other money saved up, so at the end of this, I should have more than enough money for SN, domp/meto, and a PO box if I need to get one!

Congrats on getting the job!

 

[Jean4]

 

[Soulless_Angel]

anyone else ever get in a bad mood for no fucking reason, I am ready to throat punch my husband for him just looking at me! This is happening more and more, my temper flaring for no erason , I seriously can't deal with this or myself when it happens

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

@Soulless_Angel you don't need to get in a bad mood if you're always in it :)

 

[Brick In The Wall]

anyone else ever get in a bad mood for no fucking reason, I am ready to throat punch my husband for him just looking at me! This is happening more and more, my temper flaring for no erason , I seriously can't deal with this or myself when it happens

The adams apple makes a good target, just sayin.

 

[Jean4]

anyone else ever get in a bad mood for no fucking reason, I am ready to throat punch my husband for him just looking at me! This is happening more and more, my temper flaring for no erason , I seriously can't deal with this or myself when it happens

Yes. All the time. Part of the reason I am alone lol. I feel you. We are here.

 

[LegaliseIt!]

I have borderline PD, so that is a standard loop on our marital roller coaster:)
We used to live beside a golf course, and there were days when I was finding my husband so annoying (he wasn't even doing anything!), that I would fantasize about stealing the Ball Raker and running amok!
...Then, I discovered the beer cart;)

 

[Jean4]

I have borderline PD, so that is a standard loop on our marital roller coaster:)
We used to live near a golf course, and there were days when I was finding my husband so annoying (he wasn't even doing anything!), that I would fantasize about stealing the Ball Raker and running amok!
...Then, I discovered the beer cart;)

Miss you!!! Haven't told you that today!!!

 

[Carina]

anyone else ever get in a bad mood for no fucking reason, I am ready to throat punch my husband for him just looking at me! This is happening more and more, my temper flaring for no erason , I seriously can't deal with this or myself when it happens

Honestly my family has bad tempers... like we could either punch someone and hurt them, or hit someone else. It's why my MOM has sometimes broken things like countertops or I think her hand before.

I've learned to contain anger and redirect it so much so that I end up crying! IT's weird... instead of hitting someone, I"ll cry. total opposite reaction!

 

[Finis Autem Spero]

I tried to acquire some psilocybin goodies today in the hopes that it might kick me into a better mindest long enough for me to move past my deadline (lolpuns) but it fell through and now I'm just feeling extra frustrated.

I dunno, I just needed to vent I guess and it doesn't really warrant its own thread.

 

[Root]

I met the doctor yesterday. She put me to ward. They're going to try ect. Feeling anxious and very bad about myself. I don't know what should I do.

 

[Jean4]

I met the doctor yesterday. She put me to ward. They're going to try ect. Feeling anxious and very bad about myself. I don't know what should I do.

Root!!! Explain to this American please who doesn't understand the terms.

You were hospitalized?

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

I met the doctor yesterday. She put me to ward. They're going to try ect. Feeling anxious and very bad about myself. I don't know what should I do.

You don't mean electroshock therapy, do you?

 

[Root]

Root!!! Explain to this American please who doesn't understand the terms.

You were hospitalized?

Yes. :(

You don't mean electroshock therapy, do you?

Yeah

Sorry I don't speak very good English.

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

@Root wow, I can't imagine how that is going to feel. My condolences for having your freedom restricted

 

[BooGirl]

I wasn't able to reply for a little while.

phew

 

[Soulless_Angel]

we really don't need this shite!!! I was nearly forced to attempt to PM someone to see if it was the whole site....