This might be my insanity talking but how "quiet" a death is N? From people who have seen videos?
Is there moaning/gasping? Snoring?
Would it be possible to drink N, with someone else in the room, with a white noise machine on? Someone who is a heavy sleeper? The rule is 12-24 hours, I know, but most accounts have people dead in under an hour? Especially older people. I wonder how long 2 bottles would take to stop the breathing of a small middle aged person?
I'm so desperate not to die alone, I'd consider this. I actually went banging around my bedroom last night to test how loud I could be before rousing anyone. Apparently pretty loud.
It's not a good idea to drink N with someone else in the room. It's too risky. Even if they are a heavy sleeper, they could wake up to go to the bathroom or something and notice that something is wrong. There used to be videos on YT of people drinking N, but I think most of them have been taken down. Some of the people start snoring very loudly. Also there is the death rattle which can be quite loud sometimes and might wake them up.
The suffering I am going to inflict on the people I love most is the absolute worst part of all of this.
It's important this look as natural as possible, for all involved. I have a will and health care proxy. No heroic measures. This should kill me within an hour.
I go to a hotel—suicide
I go anywhere—suicide
I'm home alone for some reason—suicide
This is the only way that makes sense. But the person who is going to find me will be the same person regardless. They know how I am suffering. I'm just trying to shield the most important people to me. Let them think I just passed away. And never know the truth
They are going to do an autopsy. They will do a complete tox screen and will know that you died from the N. In the US, they do an autopsy for any unexpected death. Unless someone has a terminal illness, and their doctor says that they are expected to die very soon, it will be considered an unexpected death. Even then, they might still do an autopsy depending on what the law is where you live.
My father had a heart condition and was ill and bedridden for the last 2 years of his life. One night he went Into cardiac arrest and died in the ambulance on the way to the hospital. Someone called and told my mother that they were going to do an autopsy on my father. They told her that there was nothing for her to worry about. That they knew that my father had been sick, and that their was nothing suspicious about his death, but it was the law in the state where we lived that they now had to do an autopsy for all deaths in order to be certain of the exact cause of death.
