Discussion The morality of choosing a location

[nool]

In your opinion, is it better to have someone you know find your body or a stranger? Is it morally better to traumatize someone you know or traumatize a stranger? Does it even matter since you'll be gone?

I've been thinking about this a lot. My chosen location still isn't concrete. My current highest option is to close myself in a room, ctb, and leave a note on the outside of the door telling my loved ones not to open it.

I also had the thought to do it in a park. There's multiple state/local parks in my area that I can go to. I could step far off into the woods and go surrounded by nature. Chances of being seen can vary.

People have mentioned time and time again to book a hotel. I considered that as well, but it isn't high on my list of locations. I would definitely be found by someone unsuspecting. I don't know how I'd stop them from walking in without outright giving myself away and being sent to the hospital. I'm not sure if I could put a hotel worker through that.

I want to cause as little issue as possible. But maybe some hurt is inevitable. What do you all think?

 

[Off_Switch]

It's a shame that someone so considerate of others has to CTB.

 

[ma0]

Whether you like it or not, people will find out, and people will be traumatized. It's a pretty difficult question, but a stranger will most likely move past it easier.

That being said, you've definitely put a lot more thought into this than I have, lol. I've personally accepted the fact that I will be found, but I'm trying to delay it as long as possible, but there's only so long you can go missing before people start to notice.

 

[hedezev4]

It seems to me that the best option is in a hotel, ideally in the bathroom. I would leave a note on the bathroom door: "Do not enter, ctb, call the police/ambulance." And if someone do ctb at home with a note on the door, family will still enter and see everything while trying to save.

Another option, for example, is to do it in any private place and schedule a message to the police that I ctb, when it's already too late to save.

 

[Seiba]

It seems to me that the best option is in a hotel, ideally in the bathroom. I would leave a note on the bathroom door: "Do not enter, ctb, call the police/ambulance." And if someone do ctb at home with a note on the door, family will still enter and see everything while trying to save.

Another option, for example, is to do it in any private place and schedule a message to the police that I ctb, when it's already too late to save.

Bathroom would likely be the least traumatic experience for others if the note is respected. Unfortunately, I think dying of SN on a bathroom floor would be very uncomfortable. I've always thought of killing myself at a hotel, but I'd likely do so in bed for some amount of comfort.

 

[hedezev4]

Bathroom would likely be the least traumatic experience for others if the note is respected. Unfortunately, I think dying of SN on a bathroom floor would be very uncomfortable. I've always thought of killing myself at a hotel, but I'd likely do so in bed for some amount of comfort.

Maybe rent a hotel with several rooms and do it in a separate room with a door. Or as a last option, if the entrance door faces the bed, maybe use black opaque film to separate the door from the bed, attaching it to the walls with duct tape. And place a note on the floor(or attach to the black opaque film) between the door and the black film.

 

[Seiba]

Maybe rent a hotel with several rooms and do it in a separate room with a door. Or as a last option, if the entrance door faces the bed, maybe use black opaque film to separate the door from the bed, attaching it to the walls with duct tape. And place a note on the floor(or on the black opaque film) between the door and the black film.

Thank you for the idea. I appreciate it, sincerely.

 

[Freedombus'25]

Been thinking about this... was one of mh hesitations in booking a hotel. And now my hesitation to jumping when I really thought about it.

Ideally for me the person to find me is the police? But obv after ive ctb. I dunno it's unfortunate to traumatize others in such a way but an unfortunate part of the reality of ctb. I guess I'm coming to accept it...

It's a pretty heavy feel at times tho. Among all the other things with ctb...