Vlad Tepes
Experienced
- Jun 24, 2025
- 231
I've seen this experience being shared by many members here, and lord knows it is the story of my life. And I am very, very interested in hearing about similar feelings that other people here have nurtured for a while.
I feel like the loser of the losers, a separate species that even the filth of society dont want to accept. Even among "nerds", neurodivergent communities, and in general groups of "outcasts", I am the outcast. I am the uncoolest person out there. It's like I exist in a different plane of reality. Nobody, absolutely nobody, can relate to my condition. The horribly traumatic and impoverished conditions of my childhood, my severely disturbed mental state, my literally insane and criminal parents, the extreme extent of my autism and ADHD, my very rare physical ailments, my extremely bizarre communication habits, my hyper-niche interests and tastes, etc. Its like I was born to be miserable and alienated. There are times where Im genuinely not sure that I am of the same type of being as the Homo Sapiens that surround me. I have absolutely no friends and will never be able to have any, because being around human beings causes me great displeasure and I utterly lack any sort of social or interpersonal skills in the slighest. I have ever since I was a child have had to resort to imaginary friends and daydreaming because the real world and the humans that inhabit it are entirely foreign to me. I cant even conversate with anybody anymore because I genuinely dont think we are of the same species. I could literally march into an insane asylum and still feel like an outcast freak. There is nobody that accepts me, I am always a complete weirdo everywhere I go, even by the standards of those considered "complete weirdos".
I feel like the loser of the losers, a separate species that even the filth of society dont want to accept. Even among "nerds", neurodivergent communities, and in general groups of "outcasts", I am the outcast. I am the uncoolest person out there. It's like I exist in a different plane of reality. Nobody, absolutely nobody, can relate to my condition. The horribly traumatic and impoverished conditions of my childhood, my severely disturbed mental state, my literally insane and criminal parents, the extreme extent of my autism and ADHD, my very rare physical ailments, my extremely bizarre communication habits, my hyper-niche interests and tastes, etc. Its like I was born to be miserable and alienated. There are times where Im genuinely not sure that I am of the same type of being as the Homo Sapiens that surround me. I have absolutely no friends and will never be able to have any, because being around human beings causes me great displeasure and I utterly lack any sort of social or interpersonal skills in the slighest. I have ever since I was a child have had to resort to imaginary friends and daydreaming because the real world and the humans that inhabit it are entirely foreign to me. I cant even conversate with anybody anymore because I genuinely dont think we are of the same species. I could literally march into an insane asylum and still feel like an outcast freak. There is nobody that accepts me, I am always a complete weirdo everywhere I go, even by the standards of those considered "complete weirdos".
