the loneliest thing you've done

[Memento Mori]

registrered here on the peak of loneliness i guess
now i still havent found any reliable method for me except maybe N and thats not affordable to me, but at least theres some human contact with "similar" individuals lol
but the price is to see some of them ctb so i guess that must be the loneliest thing ive done. i dont spent time with anyone, 1hour each month with my dad, some hours each 1-4months with my ex, and 5 minutes each month for unexpected meeting people somewhere

During weekends I roll cigs. Roughly 450 a day. It used to be that I roll them all in the morning non stop, but that also feels like shit. After God knows how long it came into my head that I don't have to spend the entire morning on this, I can roll for two hours, go for a walk, roll another two hours, go for another walk, etc etc. Now instead of going nuts of boring this random choice helped me kill the entire day.

once i thought about rolling joints all day as a job. maybe we should ask some amsterdam coffeeshops if they need some pre-rollers :D

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

once i thought about rolling joints all day as a job. maybe we should ask some amsterdam coffeeshops if they need some pre-rollers :D

Heh, yeah, there's this weird ad on Facebook offering a job in Amsterdam as a joint roller. It pops up every so often, at least. Much more rare now. I wanted to sign up and move, but
A) it sounds weirdly too good.
B) I need my neurologist at an arm's distance.

 

[ThisIsTheLastNight]

Spending New Year's Eve alone because I'm alone the rest of the year. fucking autism

 

[Roberto]

I used to go out alone to the disco to dance. As I'm not very attractive I always danced alone the whole night until the day.

 

[netrezven]

Few years ago when my phone was eavesdropped and i have been almost constantly under dazzle i made fake conversations and meetings. When my car was finally bugged i pretended to talk to untapped phones and make big deals, meetings and order fly tickets. It was really funny. Once ordered pizza to the surveillance guys and they even returned the favor. I was lonely back then, but it did not felt like that. In fact i was so deeply involved in making jokes, that they still laugh about it /most of them/. Come on, I really wish i was there, when they got the recordings from the traffic cameras thinking they are a step ahead
and saw my middle finger. It should have been so lovely.

 

[agreement]

I used to go out alone to the disco to dance. As I'm not very attractive I always danced alone the whole night until the day.

Concerts, alone, a lot of them

 

[Superfluous]

I just googled "loneliest thing to do" and came across a list of the top 10 loneliest things in the world. Apparently, number 1 in the list is Humans. So, I guess the loneliest thing I've ever done is a human

 

[Quinlor]

Not to turn off my cell phone in the cinema because I know nobody will call me
Classic

 

[Walilamdzi]

I've done a lot of things alone, when I travelled alone, it was one of the best trips I've ever had. I've been to a restaurant alone and the cinema alone. I don't have anyone I consider a friend, anymore, so there aren't a lot of options when it comes to doing something.

 

[TheNorthernSilence]

Already mentioned, but for me it's probably also spending new year's eve alone in my apartment and just staring at the walls and ceiling mainly.

 

[AveryConure]

I haven't felt like ctbing in a while but I still post here cause none of my friends want to talk to me anymore.

 

[Roberto]

Already mentioned, but for me it's probably also spending new year's eve alone in my apartment and just staring at the walls and ceiling mainly.

Without alcohol? It use to make better any situation.

I haven't felt like ctbing in a while but I still post here cause none of my friends want to talk to me anymore.

I'll never understand why friends leave you alone after these situations.

 

[AveryConure]

After I told them about my official diagnosis of DID they basically said they'd help me then they slowly got uncomfortable with me/us and they just....stopped talking or made excuses to not hang out.

So yeah, the usual mental illness bullshit people deal with cause they all think MI just means anxiety and mild depression anymore.

 

[TheNorthernSilence]

Without alcohol? It use to make better any situation.

Yeah without alcohol, I didn't feel like drinking back then.

 

[martha]

I once sent birthday cards to myself.

as long as you don´t get an answer

 

[Loli]

It was recently. Brought a bunch of dandelions for one of cows we have on my faculty. This girl is darling so I visit her sometimes. I petted her and told her about my suicide plans because I have no courage to talk about it with anyone in real life. Assured her that I'll be behind her. She will be slaughtered at the end of semester. At least she looked happy while munching greens and understanding nothing he hee~

 

[Deleted member 1768]

Playing worms on my old PS1 alone against myself many years ago.
Going alone in a restaraunt, cinema or zoo.
Playing these Playlink games on my PS4 alone.
Other things like being alone on christmas, New Year and so on are just normal.

That is hard Bar...I'm sorry...(((HUGS)))

The loneliest thing I do on a daily basis is reading and writing. The biggest single player games there is.

I never feel lonely when I can read and write. I do release a lot of anger through my writings though. My mission in life has never changed: reveal injustice, needless suffering, and the deception inherent in the systems our laws permit to continue. Pharmaceutical companies, mental health laws, medical associations, poverty, environments...lol...I could go on.

 

[LastFlowers]

Talk to myself, talk to myself masked as hundreds of other people. Just so my conversation isn't an echo chamber.
I don't have multiple personalities or anything, I'm aware of what I am doing. It's only in my head.

 

[sunny.sativa]

Man, am I weird for enjoying solitude? Like all the time? I'm sure it contributes to depressive episodes but damn, everything I do alone is, most of the time, better than it'd be with another person. Friend or not.

I go get meals alone, I watch movies alone, hit stores downtown.. hikes, the beach, smoke seshes, etc. I guess I don't have to worry about having an attitude or smacking my food on accident or keeping the other person entertained.

 

[Life+me=error]

Spending New year's eve in a motel 6 after telling my room mate I am going with friends to Miami.

 

[tomz323]

I just walked home and on the way had a 20 minute aloud conversation with myself on who would care if I ctb, does that count?

 

[marcusuk63]

I just walked home and on the way had a 20 minute aloud conversation with myself on who would care if I ctb, does that count?

20 minutes? I would be lucky to get one minute out of that conversation

 

[tomz323]

20 minutes? I would be lucky to get one minute out of that conversation

I was really really reaching with people though.

 

[The.End]

I once lived alone in foreign country for four months with no friends or family around. Apart from going to the shops for food, I spent 100% of the time alone in my apartment.

This is pretty much a big "no no" thing to do for "normal" people.

I tried to do this once and a family member thought I was completely insane, personally I saw nothing wrong with it.

 

[thishappened]

Going to the park alone to smoke weed and sleep there

 

[First loss]

Got free of half of the classes one day, and everyone in my class went with their gf/bf, while I went alone on the highest fucking hill in my town and laid under the television repeater, contemplating to jump.

 

[Soul]

Living

 

[Chalken]

Not talking to anyone for days on end.

 

[Midnight]

Buying companionship

 

[GreyMagic]

I sang Happy Birthday to myself as was walking to catch a bus. Somebody who knows my parents caught me mid song, and every time see them they bring it up. Yay..